私の甘い赤ん坊

My Baby, Sweet Baby
I see you smiling when i close my eyes
'cause i miss you, i need you right now

For my fragile heart not saying "I'm back", I'm sorry;
Never knew I'd make you feel lonely.
The way I was waiting to return was painful.

And we're back to fighting,
The trivial thing.
Can't stop the rain yet,
So we both surrender.
Together again,
'cause only you can drive me crazy.

My baby, sweet baby. Oh
We're always unable to be honest with ourselves.
Your gentle shyness makes you unique.

Do you believe in destiny?
'cause I can't deny, baby you and I
Why are we living here?

If the two of us must meet by chance,
what kind of other difficulties must be surpassed?

Think about the conveniences well
You are still troubled
That kind of thinking, I still depend on you too much even today
'cause Only I can't drive you crazy!

My baby, sweet baby, After this I want to talk to the future you!!
That is what my heart tells me

Now Baby, Please tell me? Oh
Because it's fine without words.
Being next to you smiling is my only wish.

The world's not in a hurry
Our time has not been stopped early
There's nothing to worry
Time won't lead us apart.

Just some poem. Happy New Year! :-)

Happy 5th

Hi, Jes. I know we agreed to have a little rest, but I really want to express how I feel this Christmas & today. For today is a very special day. 5 years ago, at Multiply. It was what made us to be what we are not & that I really really do appreciate & adore it so much. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.

We might not be in sync and we might fight and misunderstand each other sometimes, but these are some things that helps us both. As obstacles to test us & makes us stronger. Let's spend time with our family & treat them the best, for they have given us the live that we are having right now. We will have our time. We'll be patient. Our time will indeed come. We'll be waiting. 

2013 is nearing & things will definitely get better. Thank You.

I LOVE YOU, JESYL!

Thank You. Thank You. Thank You. :-)

HAPPY HAPPY 5th ANNIVERSARY, JESYL GABRIELLE VILLAFLOR GUBATANGA!

Many more to come.

Enjoy. I am always here. I'm with you. :-)

Love,

Hector Barrieses Ledesma III

12-17-12

Today was a pretty long day. I'm happy that yesterday was pretty self-fulfilling. I'm glad that today, we got to see eachother, eventhough it was a bit of impromptu, when you showed up at Justin's house, but that made it all the more special. I hope you had a good talk with Renz and understood what he said too. Though, I don't know what you both were talking about, but I hope it really helped and you learned some things about him too. I know that you still won't text me and reply to me, but I hope it will be better, starting to text once in a while might help.

I hope you'll enjoy this week, with hangouts with the gang and cook-fests & marathons. I know you'll have fun with them, I know how you miss them too since you weren't able to see eachother last sembreak. Please say Hi to them for me too.

I'm sorry I went home today late, because I lost track of time and we had fun talking. Me, Teiyo, Ymman, Noel, Justin, Renz, Krisel, Ramil. We had fun. Although they didn't win, it was all the more fun, getting to know better your Nursing classmates too. (Though they we're the dungol boys. Lol) We didn't drink, but we sure ate a lot @ Salvi's. (Libre mn nila, from NSC)

I hope that we'll grow better with this week and we'll be better for our future. I will always wait for you. I Miss You, but I understand our situation. I am really happy to know that you still do care and love me, But I have to make sure that THAT will NEVER fade away, but strengthen our bonds. Thank You. Good Night, you know who you are. Let's Pray, God is always watching over us and I know he supports us both fully. :-)

Jaro Plaza Road/ Old IMIS

"Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be.

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...

I'm not moving..."

You know where to find me and I know where to find you. We will always meet at the place we first knew each other. Even though we might not "sugata" eachother on jeepneys, we still go the same way, and our paths always meet. One day at a time, one step at a time. Our paths shall intertwine again and the endpoints meet. Let us follow this intertwined path and get to know each other once again. The sun is shining bright, it is a brand new morning, & it will get better. 
I'll be waiting for you always. :)

12-15-12

Woke up later than expected today. 7:30am instead of 6:30. We had a test this morning at Electromagnetics. It was hard, but we managed. That was the last of our Preliminary Examinations. Phew. What a 1/4 of a semester it has been. Rollercoaster. 1 more week of classes, then Christmas Break! 10 more days until Christmas too! 

Today was somewhat of a busy day. The exam finished 11am. Me, Paul, Zelmer, Martin and Deo planned to watch Rorouni Kenshin at SM at 1pm, but that plan fell through. Zelmer got snubbish because Paul was teasing him all day long yesterday. 

I got home & Matthew was gone, he went to SM, to watch a movie with his friends. Jacob knew and he cried, he too wanted to go with them  so, Mommy brought him. After they left, I had many customers. So it was a busy day gd. I slept 4pm to 5:30, then went to WVSU Hospital Chapel to go to mass.

I knew that your classes would end at 7pm, but there was no signal in the Chapel. I went to fetch you (hopefully) around 7, but then Rica's text came and said that you were dismissed already, 40 minutes ago. I really had a bad miscalculation. I really hoped to see you after your class because I know it's your Christmas Break na. But you still have some school works to finish, so Good Luck. Kaya mo na! I hope to see you soon enough. I hope things will be brighter and form a clear path :)

CPU Opening of Lights

CPU Opening of lights started late (Pinoy Time) from the original 6pm to 8pm. When the lights were turned off, there was a loud scream, just to spook out the onlookers, one by one, candle lanterns begin to fly. A bit later, hundreds of them are seen floating through the air. A few minutes later, a countdown started, until the lights were turned on. Fireworks broke out and it ended with a bang. People cheered and sang for the spirit of Christmas is nigh.

There were more flying lanterns this year than last year, but the organization last year was kind of better. The lights seem to be always the same with little variations, and the fireworks were ok, but the ending was good. These are some of my complaints in this event.

But the only thing that I really regret is that she wasn't there to spend the night with me watching the Christmas event with joy. I know that things have been fuzzy the whole year round, but I really do miss spending time watching simple event like these with my special someone. Things are very slowly getting back together, and I won't rush these things. We will watch all the amazing lights together once again and witness the spectacular fireworks with each other hand-in-hand, side-by-side. It's just that we need to understand each other fully better, no more things to hide, all should be open to one another.

Looking at the lights really reminded me that I am lonely. I am lonely and frustrated for all the happenings that has come upon these past few months. I remember January 4 years ago, when we watched the Dinagyang Firework Contest behind SM City, we were really happy and nothing would stop us. I do want to go back to that state, but we have to take it step by step. The Christmas spirit is upon us, let's get to know each other better again and become closer and stronger. God is with us and will always be watching. :-)

Baked Zitti

I have always wondered about the Baked Ziti of Sbarro, it has worked wonders for me. That pasta with melted cheese topped with creamy white sauce, also with that meaty sauce with heavenly meatballs, always fills up my stomach, OUR stomachs. Whenever I have the chance to buy one of these, I do so. Not only because it's one of our favorite things to eat, but it always cheers you up, especially at stressful and hard moments in life.

Every friday afternoon, I don't have classes, and because of this schedule, I always try to wait at the WVSU Hospital  until duty is finished. This is the only time that I could see you after duty because of the difference in our schedules. I know it's nothing much, but I hope the little things do count too. I may not be as big as before, but somehow, every little thing counts and adds up to something big too.

This Christmas is something to turn for the better. Once tornned relationships are being mended by the spirit of joy and friendship. I hope for things to gradually continue to be better. Let us eat and be merry this season with everyone of our loved ones.

12-13-12

12 days before Christmas, but where's the love? Somehow I don't feel this Christmas season. There's something clearly wrong and off about it. I can't tell what it is yet, but I hope things will be better after a while.

There are many things that I always want when it's Christmas season, but lately I feel as though I have grown accustomed to wanting and lately I haven't really window shopped for anything lately. Maybe because I have no one to accompany me? Or I'm just not that going-out person anymore.

Hopefully, the Christmas spirit will kick in after a while and we will all be joyful this season. Let us stay positive, because the day of the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ is nearing. Christmas season is not for gifts, but is for our family, friends, and especially the Lord. May He bless us this season with prosperity and warmth. I'm sure He will heed our wishes this Christmas, for He is always listening and helping us get through the everyday course of our life.

I believe that things will get better, and we just need a little push. Friends are coming back to their families and we will be joyous once again in each other's company. I just hope to see that the one person that I really long for, wants to see me too, and spend time together this special holiday, this VERY special day before Christmas. :-)

12-12-12

12-12-12... It's such a wonder that I have lived through THREE decades (1990, 2000, 2010), TWO Centuries (20th & 21st), while living this ONE life and I am still 18 years old. Life is indeed wonderful. There will be days, months or even years that will never go our way, but we must look down. We are born in this world for a reason, and to find that reason is what we have too look in life.

All life's frustrations are obstacles for us to get better and realize who we really are. Our problems make way for our paths. Our paths are what we choose. Life will be dull without these, for that we have to stay strong. Love is always around us, even if we can not feel it. Love will find it's way to life. Life is full of twists and turns, hills and plains, tidal waves and calm seas, it is unexpected. These are what makes life wonderful.

12-12-12 will come again in another century, another lifetime. Our next generation will live through it again, and will learn to appreciate everyday life. Things right now are frustrating, more doubts than laughs, but I still hope that things will be alright. Eventhough I am close to making myself explode from this Earth, I will never forget that there are people that still LOVE and CARE for me everyday, if I am sick, stressed, or even healthy. I know what I need to find, but the question is that if that someone too is looking for me these days. I feel that things have been shaken and dissipating bit by bit. I hope I am wrong though. I have not accepted defeat.

But this is reality, life is not a movie that one snap of a scene, things always get better.  Reality holds the truth, and I need to know the truth. I need to know from you.

What I have learned from this day is that I have to grab my opportunity to make things right. To understand the feelings of people, and for them to understand me too. Time is constantly changing, we must make a move, for just standing still will never make the world move.

Love is full of life, and life is full of love. These two are always in proportion. Each day with you always make me full of life. We need to talk, to finally make each of us understand what we need to hear. :)

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I love this emoticon <(") - that's a penguin!

To the moon

"A summer's disregard

A broken bottle top

And a one man's soul

They follow each other

On the wind ya' know

'Cause they got nowhere to go

That's why I want you to know"

I'm starting with the man in the mirror. I'm asking him to change his ways. And no message could have been any clearer, if you wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself and then make a change.
Change is the hardest thing to to because, it is not easy to change who you really are. But when you do realize that things are needed to change, then change for the better. This is what I have realized these past months and especially this sembreak.
As I look through myself in the mirror, I couldn't see clearly of who I am. I might have lost track of myself and straying to a wrong path, but it might be just that I am a little confused and pondering what life really means. Things happen for a reason, I believe. Might be for good or for worse, these little experiences help us gain experience and lessons to be learned. A friend starting to drift away, families breaking apart, trust fading away, mind not working properly... these are some of the things that might be the common problem of straying away from the path we are supposed to choose. If things need to be settled, settle with yourself first, know what is wrong and what is right, understand others so that they could understand what you are going through too. A little change in personality could be a really big help to people around us. That's partly a case for me, no one is telling me what I have done wrong, so it might be a bit hard, but I am still managing.
We need to reflect on our mistakes. You are not the only one who is stupid enough to make mistakes again and again in life. I too am that stupid person. I keep making mistakes. Once you've recognized your mistakes, it's easy enough to correct them. Though time and persistence will tell if we do exactly change. But the next question is: what happens when we change, is it for the better of for the worse? It's a gamble we have to choose ourselves but when we pick the right paths, it will always surely be rewarding.
Expectations: we always have those don't we? That will never run out. We always want others to meet our expectations, but in turn, we haven't met their expectations as well. That's cruel, but that is how our world was made.
There is always hope that things will be better. I have to fix myself, care about my body and studies too, but there are other important things that needs to be done too. Because I won't give up on us and I am still looking up even if gravity pulls us down, it will never stop me from reaching the moon.
Let's believe, Hope, and Pray that things will definitly be brighter. Though 2012 hasn't been friendly, it's still not the end of the world. Thank You. 'Til next time again. Peace. Apollo out. :-)

2nd Sem

Yo. Still alive, still breathing, but almost down on my knees crawling. It's just been the start of the 2nd semester and things have gone on a roller coaster. 

To sum up the subjects that I'm taking up this semeseter are:

1) Electromagnetics - is back just like Vectors, "Too Fast, Too Furious", when you copy, you can't listen, when you listen, you can't understand a word because maam is like a GShG -7.62 Gatling gun. 

2) Dynamics - Papang is back with his usual moody self, while being hilarious & scary both at the same time, he just wants to retire, that's all but the school won't ever let him go. It's kinda like Mechanics but for now, it seems ok. Dealing with Free-Falling-Bodies & Physics

3) Deformable - Ouch. Man... New teacher, Engr. Ocate. What to say, he speaks softly but man, his tests are a pain. His catch phrase is "Okay lang?" "Makita nyo ni sa likod, Okay lang?" "Te, Okay lng?"

4) Electronics II - Engr. Alguidano is the same as ever. Kinda hates night class but has no choice because that's out schedule.

5) Circuits II - Dr./Engr. Java is the man of the semester again! Ouch. Super ouch. 2nd day of classes, we got locked out for being late when it was still 7am on our watch, the reason, his watch was 15 minutes advanced than ours. So, we had to adjust again. He's a bit fast and has too many shortcuts, so it's kinda hard to understand Phasors & the like.

6) Advanced Math - Engr. Catadman-Pascual, the newly married professor in the engineering building right here. She came back after a 5 year absence from teaching. So far, she's been a good teacher, very likely to replace Engr. Lacson's teachin qualities. So far so good.

7) Human Resource Development (HRD) - is a minor course in engineering focusing on the self-confidence and self-acceptance of the individual, to put him on the right track & keep his goals in sight. Too bad that it's Engr. Ojario who's teaching us this class, no body's gonna listen to his gags, he's just too much of a goofball, but still a good teacher. Random grades here we come again.

That was the list of my subjects this semester.

Congratulations!

Hello there! I went back online to congratulate you on the job very well done. i know you definitely deserve it, especially for the hard work you have done. I am really so proud of you. I really really am. Happy Happy gd ko. Celebrate ta ha? Thank You. I believe & keep faith. We can do this right. Be strong. Focus. Let God help us and let him do his work. Miracles happen to those who deserve it, and you really really do deserve the best! :-)

Happy Birthday! :)

Happy Happy Birthday, Jesyl Garielle V. Gubatanga!

Another year, another turning point. There are many things that we still have to improve. And I believe that we could improve ourselves and to grow much stronger. Keep Living happily, Laughing hard, and Loving more & more. Things will be only getting tougher as we get a bit older, but we gain more skills and grow wiser at the same time.

We have been through a lot and I am really thankful for that. Keep Safe. Always Focus & Study hard! You'll become one heck-of-a doctor someday. Keep your faith, virtues and goals. Thank You, Bestie. I'm here to support you all the way. Always. God Bless.  :-)

August...

It has been another month since last posting a blog. A lot of things happened within a month. It feels like things are tearing apart. Well, it's practically my fault though, maybe. I am just so confused right now and everything is not going that well. Other than the Engineering team winning it's 3rd straight football game, it has been practically very busy especially U-Week is just around the corner.

There are so many things to do, so many things to make right. I know the times are bad. We just need to think it all over and find ourselves at where we are. Things are indeed tough, and it just keeps on getting tougher. We can survive this though. :)

Only you view my blog though, I left a letter on Lolo's house the other day. I hope you recieved it along with the usb. We need to talk it through, but let us do our priorities first. Let's make things right. I really need to make things right. :-)

Saturday

Hey guys I just have to pour out what I'm feeling right now.

I am not feeling well. Not feeling well at all. I don't know if things have changed for the worst. I don't know what to expect. One day I can't sleep of being excited that that day would be really great and we would end up having a really great time. But things happened and made it worse. I really feel bad. I am pissed off at myself, not at you. I am honestly thinking that I am not the best person in the world. I know I am not. You are always on my mind, every second of every minute of everyday. I couldn't sleep knowing that we are on the rough side again. It's not your fault. It's practically and literally mine. I burdened these on myself and you have every right to get angry at me. I try. I did try and I still keep on trying. I want to make it work even though it is hard and is getting harder. I do give an effort to make you happy. I just don't know if it worked. I still am trying to figure out how to show a lot more of my effort to you. It's just that sometimes I feel that you're stepping on me and the efforts I give to make you happy. You deserve to be happy and I am willing to sacrifice myself to make you happy. I guess I don't fill that expectation. I'm a lovesick fool still trying my hardest to make you notice me. Right now, I am not flying high and won't ever go to the moon. I want things to the way it were when we are not always fighting.

It's my fault that I still haven't healed from the flu. I should also say it's over fatigue of playing soccer. But... I love playing soccer. Eventhough I know I am not good at it. I play because I could feel the breeze when I am running, I could breathe and focus on only one thing. There, I could think clearly. I always give it my all because I know you love the sport too and I really want to make you proud and happy. I don't have too many accomplishments, I'm not smart, I'm not a leader. I'm trying to act that I am, but I truly am not. I don't have the guts. I always tend to hesitate at the biggest moments. 4th year, the game-winning goal for Westbridge. The ball barely touched my head infront of the goal. I hesitated to jump and the ball went to me. If I just jumped, we would have won the game. I didn't. It still traumatizes me and makes me realize that I fade off every big moment. Maybe I am just a feeler, feeling that I am Mr. Everything. But I tell you, I will never be Mr. Everything. I'm Mr. Nothing. I am no good. I feel really negative.

But after taking a breather, I realized that I see my flaws and I want to make myself better. I still have one thing left though. I still have my Hope. That things will be better and happier. I know it will be. It's another hurdle to jump over, but we will be happier and a better US.

I'm sorry for the tantrums. So much mixed emotions and uncertainty filled up inside my head and it's beginning to get clearer. :-)

I know you're looking out for me. And I thank you for that. I hope I do look out more for myself. :-)

...cause I, think you're from another world.

and I couldn't love another girl.

'Cause you make me feel like I'm intoxicated (with milk and your love)

RIP Comedy King

As you may have heard already, the Philippine Comedy King, Rodolfo "Dolphy" Vera Quizon passed away last tuesday 8:34pm. It is another great loss to the Filipino people and to the Entertainment world. Through 70 years in show business he moved the hearts of Filipinos arund the world. His career began as a stage performer during the Japanese occupation.  His talent was realized by Pancho Magalona and they teamed up to form a long lasting bond that brought out the smiles of everyone. He is now in a better place and he will always bring joy and laughter wherever he goes. Goodbye, Dolphy. May you have a very good sleep.

Wednesday, 11th July 2012.
I went to WVSU Medical Center around 3pm because I thought you had your duty there, after a while of waiting I texted Betsy and she said that you had Duty at school. You said you had a meeting too, so it's understandable. But I still waited for your reply. Around 3:50 I went back to CPU for football practice. This is the last week for the final lineups. The Lineups were supposed to be due yesterday afternoon but Kevin told the ESC that by Friday he'll give it out because the selection process is getting hard. Everyone is doing their best to be part of the team. Tomorrow is the last day and after practice the lineups will be called upon. I hope that I still am part of the team. Next week is CEW, so classes will be shortened. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, unfortunately, classes end at 7:30pm. We'll have time. I know you're busy with Lipsynch and your football practice. I hope I could practice with you guys too. I really want to see you play again. Haha.

Oh yeah, I'm sorry for the way I acted last wednesday night. I was tired and grumpy 'coz of the Prelim exam I had today but I still managed to get around Jaro to find the Newspaper and unfortunately all stores were closed. I finally bought the Daily Star this morning around 6:30am. I bought yesterday's and today's edition. I asked for the Daily Inquirer but they had no Headlines about Dolphy. I guess that the ones they released yesterday wasn't the updated one. I am really sorry. I do have a surprise though. Let's do our best, ok? :-)

Meatballs Galore

Things have been great. It really has been going smooth. I am really happy this week, not only that prelims are finished, but also because I have you in my life. You are very important to me and that I will do everything to make you happy. Thank You for the Eat/Pig-outs we have had these past few days. You definitely deserved it. You need to be happy before Duty starts again. We will grow. Better, stronger, wilder, and faster. I am really looking forward to your football games, lipsynch, and your articles of LIFELINE. I know that you could do it. We have our responsibilities and we both know that school goes first, but I'll always be here for you. I thank you so much. I really had fun today, friday, and saturday. I enjoyed every minute of it and am looking forward to spending our free time together. Let's keep our heads up.

Everything will fall into place, bit-by-bit. Duties and responsibilities are our priorities first and foremost. We will enjoy every bit of time we have. Enjoy soccer too! I'm looking forward to see you and play with you again.

We're recharging and will be at full power in time. :-)

I helped to make these too. Next time, we'll eat it together. Natam.an gawa sa black pepper, but it still turned out to be delicious. 

Fuel, UP, Glor's, Soccer, SM, Cathedral. Arigatou Gozaimasu!

MaCheeze again sometime!

Shakes Lasagna and Pizza are waiting for us. Good Night, Jesyl. I thank you so much. Burgers again! :-)

Bitter Sweet Baked Talaba

The waves were splashing under us, 

we feel like we're flying with the summer breeze.

two people with their hearts connecting,

always together, in love and happy

Hi, folks! Happy Happy Day today. Oh Happy Day!

My mum woke me up a little past 9am because there was a call for me, my dad answered it and thought it was for me, but it turns out it was just for him, he forgot about who the caller was when actually it was his old High School Classmate. WOW. 

I met up with Jesyl at Jaro Cathedral around 10am, I brought along the Rizal book she lent me (and I initiall forgot where I put my Rizal Guide Book by Prof. Legada). We went to Ted's/Dulgie's near St. Joseph School. I ordered Extra Super Special (the biggest Batchoy bowl), the problem was that I didn't feel like eating the Liver and the intestines. They were hard to chew. Wh talked and catched up to each other, then "le wild" idea appeared that we really both loved. We went to Villa to eat at Stanley's. Look at her blog when she posts it. The Food was incredible. We had great laughs, talked so much and learned many things. I especially love eating the Kalamay-Hati. Dw ka sbd lng gd xng mga galibod xng ginamos w/ mangoes. Atrium went well, we found some really nice clothes. I am really happy that we spent the day together, catching up and just having fun together. It's been ages since, right? We'll take it step by step. (baby steps, maybe) But, we'll definitely make it work. Thank you for coming with me to the Salon for my haircut. Thank You. Thank You. I am happy, I hope you are too. I know you are. Thank You. We'll do this again when we're free.

Hey, I just met you,

and this is crazy,but here's my number,so call me, maybe?
Well, we didn't really just newly met, we met fourteen years ago. I have you're number and I wont hesitate to call and text you. I will definitely call you Coz':
I miss you so badI miss you so badI miss you so so bad
I do. Thank YOU so much for today. I am really happy. We both are, I know. :-)I sure do wish we had taken a picture where both of us are in it. 

Brother's & Sisters? Twins we are, but we are definitely more than friends.
Remember, we still have that promise of Bacolod and I hope you would never forget the question I asked you when we were eating at Stanley's: The "Why did I **** you if I..."
Take you're time, we still have lots f years ahead of us, let's not rush.

 :)

Thank You,

H

La la love you

Come feel my heart 
It’s beating like a drum and I confess
When you’re around
It’s like an army’s marching through my chest


And there’s nothing I can do
I just gravitate towards you
You’re pulling on me like the moon


You’re like a song
A beautiful symphony to my eyes
So take me on
I wanna sing along all through the night


I’m not like the other boys
Cause with you I’ve got no choice
You make me wanna lose my voice
I just wanna get you sideways
No, I’m not the type to lie
Let me turn off all these lights
You know that you could be my favourite lullaby


What would you do if I told you that I la, la, la, la, loved you?

Well, I do really love you. I really miss you. I hope we could talk soon.

:-)

Invisible

Sometime I feel as though I am invisible, not being seen or heard by anyone around me. It's an odd feeling mixed with embarrassment and sadness. When you are talking to someone and not get heard, things might be bit embarrassing. I have to work my way to get myself be heard and be noticed by the ones that I acknowledge. These things are hard, but with effort and patience, it might as well work.

It's been another long Tuesday. We all thought we would have tests today, but the teachers forgot or something unexpected happened to them. Anyway, quiz week is starting again as we get closer and closer to our Preliminary Examinations this coming July. Things got a bit busier and complex. but that is 3rd year life, the MAJORS. Engr. Java told us that we need time to study and solve at home to increase our knowledge. 3rd year is the hardest among the years because it is the transition year and the year that you will have to learn everything you can to pass the higher majors.

Things will be ok, H. It will. Just give the effort to everything you love and care about. Keep focusing on your goals. But I will never forget my virtues. I KNOW things will be alright with my family, friends and with J. We can work all of these out in time with the effort and the care.

I do not want to be invisible, the one that is lonely and sulking at everything. I want to make things right for the better. We need to assure ourselves that we are alright and we could help each other better :)


It's okay now, things will get better. They will for sure. You could take a deep breath and compose yourself, take your time, I won't rush. It will be okay. Don't worry too much because the burden will further stress you out. You've got dreams too, follow and achieve it. Everyone is here to support you, I will definitely do too. Be happy, Live on, Laugh hard, and Love even more. It's a life worth having :)

Daddy's Day

I hope the title didn't sound that Gay. Haha. Anyway, today is Father's Day. Happy Father's Day, Toto Hector Jr. Haha. Well, I may be very hard headed and always not asking for help when I need it, (on my engineering subjects) even though I know nga na agyan mu na na kg may nabal.an ka sa lessons ku. I am really sorry. I know that our family isn't all that perfect on the outside, but it really is perfect for me and my brothers. Thank You for everything. You support us with everything you've got and help us out eventhough we don't ask for it. You are always there for us when we need you the most. let us keep on running and endure the run of a lifetime. 

June 16, 2012

(because I didn't write a blog yesterday...)

Thank You, Jes for these pasalubongs, Knamit xng Durian Macaroons, Candy and Yemas. I really appreciate it. Especially that you baught a Pomelo, "Cabugao" in local terms, for me and you remembered that it is my favorite food. Thank You. Thank You. HOPE. I am. :)

Philippine Independence Day '12

It's been 114 years since the Filipinos obtained freedom from the Spaniards who ruled them over 333 years. But it wasn't total freedom because after that we were ruled by the US Forces and the Japanese Government. We officially obtained our independence from the US on July 4, 1946. I believe that has to be the day that we Filipinos call Independence Day.

I woke up around 10am because Max(Maximus my dog) licked my toes and fingers. Well... I took a bath and ate breakfast. Lunch came a bit later around 12 and we had Tinolang Manuk. Daddy and I made our first try of Crepes, though it was really a complete fail, some were overcooked and all were just not thin enough. What can you expect for the first try? I did my homework which led up to now.

In other news, the NBA finals start tomorrow between the Oklahoma City Thunder and the Miami Heat. It's the Thunder's Home Court at Chesapeake Stadium, Oklahoma. It's the battle of the natural forces of the Earth. Thunder and Heat. Which forecast will win it all? Only on NBA TV 9pm EST.

I am rooting for the west cost! I don't wanna give the King his ring because he's never the king in the first place. I'm okay if Wade and Bosh wins though. Go OKC! Beat the Heat and bring on the Thunder and Rain! Cool off the Heat!

Westbrook >>> Chalmers
ThaboHarden =< Wade
Durant = LeBron
Ibaka = Bosh
Perkins >> Haslem

Bench:
Thabo > Battier
Collison >> Anthony
Fisher = Miller


Well, Happy Independence Day Philippines! Good Night!

P.S. Great game by the Azkals! Bad thing that I missed the game :|

P.P.S. Take Care going home from Mindanao. I know you had fun. Well, off to school, I am. :)

Sad day for sports

Hi there! I woke up in the morning around 4:30am because I had to participate in the annual 5k Iloilo Society Run "Roberto Chua Memorial Run". Me and daddy left aroun 5am for the Freedom Grandstand. The race started around 6am and the route was 1.5km from Grandstand to the pier where the large ships dock (behind Fort San Pedro) then another 1.5km back to the Freedom Grandstand, then 1km to the Fountain near Atrium Plaza, then another 1km back to the Grandstand for a total of 5km. It was really humid and I couldn't breath too well because of the very large number of crowds. It was the largest in Iloilo so far this year with more than 3000 participants. I finished my run with 27minutes on my watch though I have to minus a minute because I started my timer early and that the crows was blocking the starting line. 26 minutes isn't all that, but it is my best 5k time in recent years because I almost always had an before a major event (unlcky me).

We went home directly and ate the "give-aways" of the run.
I watched the Boston-Miami game, and the game was rigged by the referees. So many non-calls cost the Celtics a victory and another finals berth. We'll we all know that OKC will be there and stop LBJ of another ring. LBJ is nothing but a big-headed athlete that is selfish and wants everything for himself. He will never win in that mindset. DWade is a better player than LBJ will ever be. So, after the Celtics ended their season, it is uncertain what will happen to the team with Garnett and Allen being unrestricted free agents coming into the offseason...

Around 12nn, we had a Live Streaming of the Pacquiao vs. Bradley fight. It was an intense and close battle with Manny hitting Bradley hard. Bradley wouldn't fall because of will power and he deserved credit for that but the fight was rigged against the Pacman. I don't know how he lost the fight because all the punches Tim gave to Manny never even hurt the Pacman. But Pacman's punches are always on time and really shut the lights out of Bradley. The firght was rigged where 2 judges scored 115-113 against Manny and a judge scored 115-113 for Pacquiao. The fans, viewers, media and sports analysts all say that Manny deserved to win the fight. Heck, even Bradley said himself that he couldn't beat the guy (Pacquiao) just after the fight. 39% to 18% of punches landed in favor of Manny. All the statistics and footage suggest that Manny definitely won the fight. Well, we'll see if the WBF review the fight and makes the right call. Ultimately, there will be a rematch this coming November for the fighters.

The world was in shock and awe as the most ridiculous and controversial boxing match ended with Bradley still undefeated and gave the Pacman his 4th loss. I've said it before and I'll say it again, That's just one life of the Pacman down and still has many-manny more to go. He'll be back up stronger, more focused and beat the heck out of all his opponents. Watch out Mayweather! The world knows he's scared to fight the Pacman.

We'll it's time to doze off after a long, tiring and confusing day. Enjoy guys! And I hope that somewone is really enjoying Mindanao! Take Care, ok? :D

Hope is always there

Today started out really great. I went with Jes to her dentist as she had her teeth cleaned. We then went to Anja's house to get the bug for Paul to identify, but instead, we took a picture of it and posted in the net for identification purposes. Me and Jes went to WB to tag along with mommy. Mommy had to buy things at SM so, me and Jes tagged along. I found myself getting a pair of eyeglasses for my continuously damaging eyes. Thank You Jesyl for the wonderful gift of picking the best frames for the glasses. We went grocery shopping after that. I know that you wanted a picnic and going to the beach, and we haven't had time. I am sorry that i did not reach your expectations and fulfill our summer goals. Moonleaf tea party was waiting for us around 2pm, I had Vanilla Milk Tea, and it was wonderful, though it was weird at first, but it was great. We shared the  Butter Cream Icing laced Chocolate Cake and Pure Chocolate Cake with Manang Jinky and Nang Kathy. SM Delgado was the next stop to buy wheat bread. We went to Jesyl's house to prepare for her trip to Davao and Gen San for 5 days. Well, I hope that she and her family have fun. i know she will take care.

The day started with a blast but ended a bit not well. I know that I have changed, maybe my voice became louder, but I assure you that I never raise my voice to you, even if I am angry, I would never ever shout at you. I admit that I do not know the volume of my tone because I always speak so loud, I am trying, really trying to control my voice. I am sorry for the negativeness of always negating what you say. There are things that we need but can be accomplished by other means too, maybe that is the reason for my negativeness, I am trying too to lessen this.

It made me really happy when I saw you today, first thing in the morning with the necklace around your neck. It gave me hope. Now, we are acquaintances, but because of that I know we will definitely be more than friends. I was disappointed because maybe I lost my chance to make things right. But I have to try, try harder. I know that things will be alright. Because I DO LOVE YOU, I still have hope. I do hope. PRAY! Thank You so much for the summer. :)

Arrozday!

Well, it's Thursday today. Another half day of classes. This time, classes started around 11:30 because of the new schedule. Vectors were a bit hard to understand. It was a pretty much OK day except that we had to endure our growling stomachs because of the straight class up to 7pm. Anyway, me and the gang ate arrozcaldo @ engi lobby just before DE. 3 refills! Haha. Gutom2 gd b mu. I understood the lecture of DE somehow. Well... I guess it was a tiring day. Atleast there would be no class tomorrow until wednesday. 4 days of rest! Get ready Pacman vs Bradly coming up this sunday!Today was a very loooong day, especially with "Mandy", Engr. Manderico, doing his stuttering and monotone lecture, 1 and a half hours looked like a full afternoon with him. But, I'll get through it.Off to bed. Good Night, guys! :)

But before I really go, here's a video that I want to share with the world. LOMO the band! It is a newly hyped project band of God Child's Kr Quiñon.

Kr Quiñon - Vocals / Rhythm Guitar

Pao Losañes - Lead Guitar

Renz "Bugart" Borres - Le Sexy Bass

Justin Celis - Drums

Enjoy! :)

Today is wednesday. Glad that today is half day only. We had formal classes and it was A-OK, well... so far.

Went to wvsu to give Anja her bug and to go with Jes for her enrollment. Met Franz & Angelo too. Had a great time with NMAT (abi kuxng una N-Math. Haha) book review. Went to Big Bites with Jes, Anja and Chito. It was  a great day. I also went window shopping with Jes. Damu2 nami stuffs, right Sperry? Nd gd ni ka2log ang ibn guro sa excitement. Well, let's get some rest. It's been a tiring but fulfilling day. I had fun. Thank You again. Food trip ta! :D

Today, Mr. Trololo (Eduard Khil) died out of stroke, my deepest condolences to him.

Well, class started 2:30pm, but still prior to change. Had class with Engr. "Mandy" Manderico, one of the old teachers in the school. He stuttered too much, did not know what to say. Haha. But, still I am looking forward to the class. Next up is with Engr. Java on Circuits I. Then to cap it off, Engr. Prado with Differential Equations. DE is really a subject to fear. For me anyways. I just have to focus and compose myself. I want to pass and never to fail. 

Went home, Tito JP, Tita Gemma, and Ninang Carol were here talking to Mommy about their reunion. I am trying to help them with some venues too. Watched Azkals vs Indonesia. 2-2 score. 3 red cards. 2 for Caligdong and Ott respectively and 1 for the Indonesian Captain. Bugbuganay kmu da ah.  Haha.

That's it for today. Gonna sleep. Class back 8am tom. Bye. 

1st day of Classes (2012)

Hi again! Well, I went through the 1st day of 3rd year college life. It was tiring and I could expect something out of the 1st semester already. Hell? Haha. Well, I just got to focus and do my work properly.

Started the day really good. Me and Jes went to John's for breakfast. I had Sizzling sisig (I told her that this was really delicious here and she really wanted to try this), and she had Tuna (I forgot the name). Kahang! I mean SPICY! Right? Anyway. She went to Anja's and I had classes.

1st class was Safety Management with Engr. Idemne. Same old, same old. Typical Sir Idemne, sing-along with praise songs and jokes with Jethro. Haha. Section B looks a lot small in number, but anyway it was a lot of fun.
2nd class was ith Engr Algudano for "Circuits I" but he was not around, so on to the 3rd class. The 3rd class with Sir Papang (Engr. Gepulango). Scary! Oooh! I did not know what to expect. He had jokes that we lagued at but overall, he is really kind of scary, what can you expect from old teachers in the university? Haha. I hope I could do well in this class, especially that it is Static Mechanics. I had lunch at home after that.
4th was the Auto-CAD class with Engr. Acanto. Well, as a 1st timer in his class, he seemed kind of OK and knows what he's doing. I certainly want to learn more out of CAD!
5th and last was Vector Analysis with Engr. Sacramento (because Engr. Calibjo didn't want a night class). We had discussions about the change of time for classes. We finally settled in for 11:30-1pm TTH, starting Thursday.

And my 1st day ended with a dinner with Jes at Lorlour's Pizza. The pizza was overloaded with cheese, big olives and sausages. I give it an OK 7/10. Hehe. Well, we were stuffed and decided to go home. So kapoy.
Here I am writing this blog, now time to sleep!

Thank You Jes! :D

Last day of summer

Hey guys, Apollo9 here.

Since it's the last day of summer, I've spent it sleeping most of the day. I didn't know what to do today. Anyway, can't say I'm excited on going back to school. But, that's life and we just have to follow our priorities first. Entering 3rd Year of Engineering School, it has rather been a difficult process. Crawling rather than running over it. Haha. Class starts at 8 am for Monday and Wednesday, 7am for Friday. The AWESOME part is that on Tuesdays and Thursday I start class 2:30pm! But sadly classes end pretty late, around 7pm everyday! Just my luck. I hope it wont be as exhausting as last year's schedule. Well, gotta go to sleep now, a long day awaits me tomorrow.

I thank you everyone that made my summer joyful. Thank You to "someone" for the 3 days of fun and happy summer vacation we had, I do with we had spent more time for each other this summer. Take Care. Bye, guys!

I wonder if it raining because the world is sad...

Hi. It's been a long time since I wrote a blog. Haha. Well, it's someway how I can express how I feel.

My summer was full of ups and downs. From school to the real life. Had fun times with College and High School classmates, but also had sad times with my real life and family problems. I still continue to move and try to be happy. But all I want is that someone to be happy. I don't know what is definitely happening right now that is ruining our lives but, I want her to know that I am always there for her no matter what. Support you and comfort you when you feel down, I will. Just keep your hopes and chin up, because time will heal and that God is watching over us.

Things have not been good for us throughout the summer, we had fun, we also had fights, but I guess we learned more from each other this summer especially. The stresses and concerns did their part. I know that it is not what I had hoped for to end the summer. I definitely wanted to end the summer happily, but it cannot be helped. I wish you God Bless and to always Take Care. I know you always do, but just be more cautious. I am here always when you need me. Tell me when something is wrong or has become worse. We will work it out and overcome it. Love-sick much? Well... That's what I am feeling now.

Anyway, I hope school starts out better than expected. I will not forget what has happened this summer, I will build myself and make myself better. By the time we could talk to each other again, I know things are better. I am waiting, and always will be. I do know that things will definitely get better. Thank you for the time we spent together yesterday, I had a really good time with you and it made me happy because it was a long time since we last went out together. Cookies n' Cream Pretzel, yum!

Hi, Beatle!

Thank you for the summer. :D

Back to school again. Happy to be 3rd year and entering my majors. Also happy that I passed the Engineering Qualifying exam. Good Luck to all! Till next time, bloggers! :)

Ang about sa "Why???..." (Multiply message from you to me)

We are still definitely more than that. I Miss You, My Love. I feel really bad, and I do Miss You a lot. I feel lonely when you are not here. I don't feel good when you are not here. I just feel weak and not being able to do anything. Yes, maybe I am weak. I became weaker every passing day. Not being able to realize that my immaturity has taken over me. I know I need to mature and grow up. I have been trying to sleep early, and these past few days, I have been. I napped most of the afternoons. But sometimes, I just couldn't sleep knowing that I am still worried about where you are and kept thinking about you. Every day you are always on my mind. And everyday, I feel weaker and out of breath feeling more depressed. We haven't been able to talk to each other for about a week already and it really feels bad and sad.
But I still have hope that we could get through this. I want to know how your trip went. I want to know all the places you came to see. I want to see you. I need to see you. We definitely need to make things right between us. I don't want us to fight. I really Miss You. And I want to spend time with you. I still am looking forward to the day we will have our picnics, swimming, running, laughtrips, foodtrips, movietrips, and everything else again. I know that we will be better. That we will keep on holding tight to eachother. I still do hold on tight, because I dont want to lose you.

Only 4 grades went out yesterday and here it is:
- Calculus = 3.0
- PE = 1.75
- Hum = 1.5
- Fil = 2.25
I am really glad that I passed Calculus, and I thank you so much for believing in me. Because of you, I did not loose hope. I will not loose hope. Because hope is what I have that keeps me running. I still believe and I do have faith.

I Miss You, Dear. Please Talk to me. :)

Full moon

Confused as I am too, things came up at an instant. Too much bad decision making, too much anticipation of what is coming next, I need to make myself decide better. My decision making skills are pretty bad, I reckon. But man, these times are hard. For me and for you too. I know that I am stressing you out more than I know it.

We were supposed to go watch Manila Kingpin: the Asiong Salonga story, but I found out that it was not showing anymore. Last minute I got hungry, and that pretty muchruined my day then and there because I did not think straight anymore with things keep popping in my head like not going down and wait bur wait at the restaurant. The truth is, I really thought of stopping and coming down to wait. I really did. A split second it was over, that I zoomed past WVSU and ISC. I choked. Simple but hard for me to understand myself. I choked. Again and again in my life I have failed. I have failed to see which way is the better route. Another thing came to my mind, I missed the times when we were racing to our destination with consequences who came last. Well, I miss our High School times. I really do. I hope we could have one of those days again, one of our high school days where we enjoy coming and going to where our destination lies.

Well, I also know that you are not pathetic in anyway, because I know I am pathetic and a jerk too. I would still be going on with you through life. I will go to every ends of the Earth with you. :)





"But we’re gonna start by drinking "not expired" glasses of Meeelk
Sit talking up all night, Saying things we haven't for a while,
We're smiling but we're close to tears, Even after all these years
Somehow I got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time"

Singing my emotions out and thinking how to make myself better. :)

1st of January

Good Evening, Love. Your blog has touched me again. I really have let myself down last year but of Hope to step it up this year. Obstacles and challenges are always there to meet us, but it is how our heart responses that takes us to the top and over our difficulties and differences. And by responsibilities, I have to make my own and take it up until the end. They really are important things that we need to prioritize for it is how we live today. Our responsibilities to our families, friends, YOU, and OURSELVES.

What you say is correct. That happiness is associated to love. When loving, you are indeed happy inside. When you are sad to someone you love, you are sad for their well being (if they have done harm to anything even themselves). Sad in order for them to realize that in someway or somehow they have hurt their loved ones too. But be happy if that person strives to replace that sadness with smiles and laughter, with cheers and comfort.

"Two persons who have chosen each other out of all the species with a design to be each other's mutual comfort and entertainment have, in that action, bound themselves to be good-humored, affable, discreet, forgiving, patient, and joyful, with respect to each other's frailties and perfections, to the end of their lives" - Joseph Addison

I know that love and happiness will come again. It has to start within you and me. Most especially within me.

"If you wished to be loved, love." - Lucius Seneca