Hello there! It's been a really long time since I posted. Since ky wla nmn multiply, so here na lg. I know it might be late enough when you read this, pero,
HAPPY HAPPY GRADUATION, JESYL GABRIELLE V. GUBATANGA.
I know we have our differences, & mostly we're not in synch mg kitaay ta, pero I cherish every moment of them. I am going to Manila this sunday (March 30, 2014) to start my 2014 Educational Tour w/ the College. I do not know what might happen, pero we'll be safe, I am sure.
I thank you for everything that has happened this past 7 years. I know I'm such a pain in the buttocks and that I always contradict what you're telling me not to do. But I guess I just want to have that lasting presence on you that you'll never ever forget. Even though you may not have the feelings back, I can understand that and respect that. Pero, you always have a place in my heart & always that soft spot for you. I hurts, everyday it does, pero love hurts. Every time you choose to love, it's inevitable.
I quote Ted Moseby from How I Met Your Mother: "But love doesn't make sense! You can’t logic your way into or out of it! Love is totally nonsensical, but we have to keep doing it... or else we’re lost and love is dead and humanity is just packing in. Because love is the best thing we do! Look, I know that sounds cheesy but it’s just true. It doesn't have to make sense just to make sense."
But, cguro, we have to grow apart to grow closer? I understand that now, that we have to find that feeling again. That spark, whenever it may come. That aura, you just know & feel it when we're together. That feeling of comfort and presence. It's tough to find, but somehow I will find a way. Thank You for everything Jesyl. Thank You so much. I would want to say this to you, but I don't know when we could be able to talk. You have your review & that's more important. Just what makes you happy, I'm all for it. Your graduation may just be the last time you might see me in my present state, or not, pero, I truly hope that the next time we see each other, I would be a better man.
Please listen to this anime song, & it's a really nice rom-com anime. Bzi gusto mo mg lantaw? Hehe. & I also left here a link for it's lyrics & english translation (click here). It's lyrics summs up what I'm trying to say though :-)
The beating of my heart won't stop. I will never ever forget all those times, laughing and crying with you, in our memories. I'm searching for the true me while becoming an adult is so difficult. Though I sometimes wonder if it's okay to forget about now...because the night is waiting. Though, my heart dances when I meet with you, and I spin around excitedly. Maybe, now, you'll realize these feelings I want to convey.Even though we're afraid of the past and the future, we can't move if we stay hollow inside. If we're having fun, then, it's all right! I get the feeling that if I just forget all the unpleasant things, and dance all night with you, I can become a more wonderful person. It's our never-ending golden time. The distance between us is closing tightly even if we take detours or part ways, I'll always treasure you.
The things like finding the me of my dreams? I don't know anything about the future. I just want to be happy, and for you to be happy too. The night won't wait forever, after all :-)
Even though we're afraid of loving and hating each other, our hearts tell no lies. I've got to convey it, let's never give up. I get the feeling that if I forget all the unpleasant things and throw away my shame, I can become a more wonderful person. So, this beginning is our golden time, the words I spun together at that time. I'm sure the continuation of this dream has been seen forever. So, I'll stick out my chest proudly and walk...
The moment we meet eye-to-eye, it became so painful at times. Though, it was almost fun. If we lose focus, the dawn will chase us down right away. Hand in hand let's go! 'cause the beating of my heart won't stop &
I will never ever forget all those times we spent laughing and crying together. The things from here on out, and the things up until now I can accept them all little by little. If I am with you, I can believe that all the best things in life has yet to happen. I believe that it is with you.
I won't stop courting you, but I will give us the distance that we both need. I thank you for everything. You know so much that I know you, though moles keep popping out & you hate it if I count them. Let's not count the days that we're together or apart. The days come and pass, like past & present, but each day we grow, I hope, better, wiser, and more mature.
When we see each other again. I know we'll feel the things that we missed & the things that brings us closer.
Happy Graduation once again! The future might be dim, but As what Senator Miriam Santiago said (aside from politics): "The Meaning of Life is what you choose it to mean". It's on our hands and it all depends on how we handle it.
I Love You,
Hector B. Ledesma III
