Saturday

Hey guys I just have to pour out what I'm feeling right now.

I am not feeling well. Not feeling well at all. I don't know if things have changed for the worst. I don't know what to expect. One day I can't sleep of being excited that that day would be really great and we would end up having a really great time. But things happened and made it worse. I really feel bad. I am pissed off at myself, not at you. I am honestly thinking that I am not the best person in the world. I know I am not. You are always on my mind, every second of every minute of everyday. I couldn't sleep knowing that we are on the rough side again. It's not your fault. It's practically and literally mine. I burdened these on myself and you have every right to get angry at me. I try. I did try and I still keep on trying. I want to make it work even though it is hard and is getting harder. I do give an effort to make you happy. I just don't know if it worked. I still am trying to figure out how to show a lot more of my effort to you. It's just that sometimes I feel that you're stepping on me and the efforts I give to make you happy. You deserve to be happy and I am willing to sacrifice myself to make you happy. I guess I don't fill that expectation. I'm a lovesick fool still trying my hardest to make you notice me. Right now, I am not flying high and won't ever go to the moon. I want things to the way it were when we are not always fighting.

It's my fault that I still haven't healed from the flu. I should also say it's over fatigue of playing soccer. But... I love playing soccer. Eventhough I know I am not good at it. I play because I could feel the breeze when I am running, I could breathe and focus on only one thing. There, I could think clearly. I always give it my all because I know you love the sport too and I really want to make you proud and happy. I don't have too many accomplishments, I'm not smart, I'm not a leader. I'm trying to act that I am, but I truly am not. I don't have the guts. I always tend to hesitate at the biggest moments. 4th year, the game-winning goal for Westbridge. The ball barely touched my head infront of the goal. I hesitated to jump and the ball went to me. If I just jumped, we would have won the game. I didn't. It still traumatizes me and makes me realize that I fade off every big moment. Maybe I am just a feeler, feeling that I am Mr. Everything. But I tell you, I will never be Mr. Everything. I'm Mr. Nothing. I am no good. I feel really negative.

But after taking a breather, I realized that I see my flaws and I want to make myself better. I still have one thing left though. I still have my Hope. That things will be better and happier. I know it will be. It's another hurdle to jump over, but we will be happier and a better US.

I'm sorry for the tantrums. So much mixed emotions and uncertainty filled up inside my head and it's beginning to get clearer. :-)

I know you're looking out for me. And I thank you for that. I hope I do look out more for myself. :-)

...cause I, think you're from another world.

and I couldn't love another girl.

'Cause you make me feel like I'm intoxicated (with milk and your love)

RIP Comedy King

As you may have heard already, the Philippine Comedy King, Rodolfo "Dolphy" Vera Quizon passed away last tuesday 8:34pm. It is another great loss to the Filipino people and to the Entertainment world. Through 70 years in show business he moved the hearts of Filipinos arund the world. His career began as a stage performer during the Japanese occupation.  His talent was realized by Pancho Magalona and they teamed up to form a long lasting bond that brought out the smiles of everyone. He is now in a better place and he will always bring joy and laughter wherever he goes. Goodbye, Dolphy. May you have a very good sleep.

Wednesday, 11th July 2012.
I went to WVSU Medical Center around 3pm because I thought you had your duty there, after a while of waiting I texted Betsy and she said that you had Duty at school. You said you had a meeting too, so it's understandable. But I still waited for your reply. Around 3:50 I went back to CPU for football practice. This is the last week for the final lineups. The Lineups were supposed to be due yesterday afternoon but Kevin told the ESC that by Friday he'll give it out because the selection process is getting hard. Everyone is doing their best to be part of the team. Tomorrow is the last day and after practice the lineups will be called upon. I hope that I still am part of the team. Next week is CEW, so classes will be shortened. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, unfortunately, classes end at 7:30pm. We'll have time. I know you're busy with Lipsynch and your football practice. I hope I could practice with you guys too. I really want to see you play again. Haha.

Oh yeah, I'm sorry for the way I acted last wednesday night. I was tired and grumpy 'coz of the Prelim exam I had today but I still managed to get around Jaro to find the Newspaper and unfortunately all stores were closed. I finally bought the Daily Star this morning around 6:30am. I bought yesterday's and today's edition. I asked for the Daily Inquirer but they had no Headlines about Dolphy. I guess that the ones they released yesterday wasn't the updated one. I am really sorry. I do have a surprise though. Let's do our best, ok? :-)

Meatballs Galore

Things have been great. It really has been going smooth. I am really happy this week, not only that prelims are finished, but also because I have you in my life. You are very important to me and that I will do everything to make you happy. Thank You for the Eat/Pig-outs we have had these past few days. You definitely deserved it. You need to be happy before Duty starts again. We will grow. Better, stronger, wilder, and faster. I am really looking forward to your football games, lipsynch, and your articles of LIFELINE. I know that you could do it. We have our responsibilities and we both know that school goes first, but I'll always be here for you. I thank you so much. I really had fun today, friday, and saturday. I enjoyed every minute of it and am looking forward to spending our free time together. Let's keep our heads up.

Everything will fall into place, bit-by-bit. Duties and responsibilities are our priorities first and foremost. We will enjoy every bit of time we have. Enjoy soccer too! I'm looking forward to see you and play with you again.

We're recharging and will be at full power in time. :-)

I helped to make these too. Next time, we'll eat it together. Natam.an gawa sa black pepper, but it still turned out to be delicious. 

Fuel, UP, Glor's, Soccer, SM, Cathedral. Arigatou Gozaimasu!

MaCheeze again sometime!

Shakes Lasagna and Pizza are waiting for us. Good Night, Jesyl. I thank you so much. Burgers again! :-)