Full moon

Confused as I am too, things came up at an instant. Too much bad decision making, too much anticipation of what is coming next, I need to make myself decide better. My decision making skills are pretty bad, I reckon. But man, these times are hard. For me and for you too. I know that I am stressing you out more than I know it.

We were supposed to go watch Manila Kingpin: the Asiong Salonga story, but I found out that it was not showing anymore. Last minute I got hungry, and that pretty muchruined my day then and there because I did not think straight anymore with things keep popping in my head like not going down and wait bur wait at the restaurant. The truth is, I really thought of stopping and coming down to wait. I really did. A split second it was over, that I zoomed past WVSU and ISC. I choked. Simple but hard for me to understand myself. I choked. Again and again in my life I have failed. I have failed to see which way is the better route. Another thing came to my mind, I missed the times when we were racing to our destination with consequences who came last. Well, I miss our High School times. I really do. I hope we could have one of those days again, one of our high school days where we enjoy coming and going to where our destination lies.

Well, I also know that you are not pathetic in anyway, because I know I am pathetic and a jerk too. I would still be going on with you through life. I will go to every ends of the Earth with you. :)





"But we’re gonna start by drinking "not expired" glasses of Meeelk
Sit talking up all night, Saying things we haven't for a while,
We're smiling but we're close to tears, Even after all these years
Somehow I got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time"

Singing my emotions out and thinking how to make myself better. :)

1st of January

Good Evening, Love. Your blog has touched me again. I really have let myself down last year but of Hope to step it up this year. Obstacles and challenges are always there to meet us, but it is how our heart responses that takes us to the top and over our difficulties and differences. And by responsibilities, I have to make my own and take it up until the end. They really are important things that we need to prioritize for it is how we live today. Our responsibilities to our families, friends, YOU, and OURSELVES.

What you say is correct. That happiness is associated to love. When loving, you are indeed happy inside. When you are sad to someone you love, you are sad for their well being (if they have done harm to anything even themselves). Sad in order for them to realize that in someway or somehow they have hurt their loved ones too. But be happy if that person strives to replace that sadness with smiles and laughter, with cheers and comfort.

"Two persons who have chosen each other out of all the species with a design to be each other's mutual comfort and entertainment have, in that action, bound themselves to be good-humored, affable, discreet, forgiving, patient, and joyful, with respect to each other's frailties and perfections, to the end of their lives" - Joseph Addison

I know that love and happiness will come again. It has to start within you and me. Most especially within me.

"If you wished to be loved, love." - Lucius Seneca