私の甘い赤ん坊

My Baby, Sweet Baby
I see you smiling when i close my eyes
'cause i miss you, i need you right now

For my fragile heart not saying "I'm back", I'm sorry;
Never knew I'd make you feel lonely.
The way I was waiting to return was painful.

And we're back to fighting,
The trivial thing.
Can't stop the rain yet,
So we both surrender.
Together again,
'cause only you can drive me crazy.

My baby, sweet baby. Oh
We're always unable to be honest with ourselves.
Your gentle shyness makes you unique.

Do you believe in destiny?
'cause I can't deny, baby you and I
Why are we living here?

If the two of us must meet by chance,
what kind of other difficulties must be surpassed?

Think about the conveniences well
You are still troubled
That kind of thinking, I still depend on you too much even today
'cause Only I can't drive you crazy!

My baby, sweet baby, After this I want to talk to the future you!!
That is what my heart tells me

Now Baby, Please tell me? Oh
Because it's fine without words.
Being next to you smiling is my only wish.

The world's not in a hurry
Our time has not been stopped early
There's nothing to worry
Time won't lead us apart.

Just some poem. Happy New Year! :-)

Happy 5th

Hi, Jes. I know we agreed to have a little rest, but I really want to express how I feel this Christmas & today. For today is a very special day. 5 years ago, at Multiply. It was what made us to be what we are not & that I really really do appreciate & adore it so much. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.

We might not be in sync and we might fight and misunderstand each other sometimes, but these are some things that helps us both. As obstacles to test us & makes us stronger. Let's spend time with our family & treat them the best, for they have given us the live that we are having right now. We will have our time. We'll be patient. Our time will indeed come. We'll be waiting. 

2013 is nearing & things will definitely get better. Thank You.

I LOVE YOU, JESYL!

Thank You. Thank You. Thank You. :-)

HAPPY HAPPY 5th ANNIVERSARY, JESYL GABRIELLE VILLAFLOR GUBATANGA!

Many more to come.

Enjoy. I am always here. I'm with you. :-)

Love,

Hector Barrieses Ledesma III

12-17-12

Today was a pretty long day. I'm happy that yesterday was pretty self-fulfilling. I'm glad that today, we got to see eachother, eventhough it was a bit of impromptu, when you showed up at Justin's house, but that made it all the more special. I hope you had a good talk with Renz and understood what he said too. Though, I don't know what you both were talking about, but I hope it really helped and you learned some things about him too. I know that you still won't text me and reply to me, but I hope it will be better, starting to text once in a while might help.

I hope you'll enjoy this week, with hangouts with the gang and cook-fests & marathons. I know you'll have fun with them, I know how you miss them too since you weren't able to see eachother last sembreak. Please say Hi to them for me too.

I'm sorry I went home today late, because I lost track of time and we had fun talking. Me, Teiyo, Ymman, Noel, Justin, Renz, Krisel, Ramil. We had fun. Although they didn't win, it was all the more fun, getting to know better your Nursing classmates too. (Though they we're the dungol boys. Lol) We didn't drink, but we sure ate a lot @ Salvi's. (Libre mn nila, from NSC)

I hope that we'll grow better with this week and we'll be better for our future. I will always wait for you. I Miss You, but I understand our situation. I am really happy to know that you still do care and love me, But I have to make sure that THAT will NEVER fade away, but strengthen our bonds. Thank You. Good Night, you know who you are. Let's Pray, God is always watching over us and I know he supports us both fully. :-)

Jaro Plaza Road/ Old IMIS

"Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be.

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...

I'm not moving..."

You know where to find me and I know where to find you. We will always meet at the place we first knew each other. Even though we might not "sugata" eachother on jeepneys, we still go the same way, and our paths always meet. One day at a time, one step at a time. Our paths shall intertwine again and the endpoints meet. Let us follow this intertwined path and get to know each other once again. The sun is shining bright, it is a brand new morning, & it will get better. 
I'll be waiting for you always. :)

12-15-12

Woke up later than expected today. 7:30am instead of 6:30. We had a test this morning at Electromagnetics. It was hard, but we managed. That was the last of our Preliminary Examinations. Phew. What a 1/4 of a semester it has been. Rollercoaster. 1 more week of classes, then Christmas Break! 10 more days until Christmas too! 

Today was somewhat of a busy day. The exam finished 11am. Me, Paul, Zelmer, Martin and Deo planned to watch Rorouni Kenshin at SM at 1pm, but that plan fell through. Zelmer got snubbish because Paul was teasing him all day long yesterday. 

I got home & Matthew was gone, he went to SM, to watch a movie with his friends. Jacob knew and he cried, he too wanted to go with them  so, Mommy brought him. After they left, I had many customers. So it was a busy day gd. I slept 4pm to 5:30, then went to WVSU Hospital Chapel to go to mass.

I knew that your classes would end at 7pm, but there was no signal in the Chapel. I went to fetch you (hopefully) around 7, but then Rica's text came and said that you were dismissed already, 40 minutes ago. I really had a bad miscalculation. I really hoped to see you after your class because I know it's your Christmas Break na. But you still have some school works to finish, so Good Luck. Kaya mo na! I hope to see you soon enough. I hope things will be brighter and form a clear path :)

CPU Opening of Lights

CPU Opening of lights started late (Pinoy Time) from the original 6pm to 8pm. When the lights were turned off, there was a loud scream, just to spook out the onlookers, one by one, candle lanterns begin to fly. A bit later, hundreds of them are seen floating through the air. A few minutes later, a countdown started, until the lights were turned on. Fireworks broke out and it ended with a bang. People cheered and sang for the spirit of Christmas is nigh.

There were more flying lanterns this year than last year, but the organization last year was kind of better. The lights seem to be always the same with little variations, and the fireworks were ok, but the ending was good. These are some of my complaints in this event.

But the only thing that I really regret is that she wasn't there to spend the night with me watching the Christmas event with joy. I know that things have been fuzzy the whole year round, but I really do miss spending time watching simple event like these with my special someone. Things are very slowly getting back together, and I won't rush these things. We will watch all the amazing lights together once again and witness the spectacular fireworks with each other hand-in-hand, side-by-side. It's just that we need to understand each other fully better, no more things to hide, all should be open to one another.

Looking at the lights really reminded me that I am lonely. I am lonely and frustrated for all the happenings that has come upon these past few months. I remember January 4 years ago, when we watched the Dinagyang Firework Contest behind SM City, we were really happy and nothing would stop us. I do want to go back to that state, but we have to take it step by step. The Christmas spirit is upon us, let's get to know each other better again and become closer and stronger. God is with us and will always be watching. :-)

Baked Zitti

I have always wondered about the Baked Ziti of Sbarro, it has worked wonders for me. That pasta with melted cheese topped with creamy white sauce, also with that meaty sauce with heavenly meatballs, always fills up my stomach, OUR stomachs. Whenever I have the chance to buy one of these, I do so. Not only because it's one of our favorite things to eat, but it always cheers you up, especially at stressful and hard moments in life.

Every friday afternoon, I don't have classes, and because of this schedule, I always try to wait at the WVSU Hospital  until duty is finished. This is the only time that I could see you after duty because of the difference in our schedules. I know it's nothing much, but I hope the little things do count too. I may not be as big as before, but somehow, every little thing counts and adds up to something big too.

This Christmas is something to turn for the better. Once tornned relationships are being mended by the spirit of joy and friendship. I hope for things to gradually continue to be better. Let us eat and be merry this season with everyone of our loved ones.

12-13-12

12 days before Christmas, but where's the love? Somehow I don't feel this Christmas season. There's something clearly wrong and off about it. I can't tell what it is yet, but I hope things will be better after a while.

There are many things that I always want when it's Christmas season, but lately I feel as though I have grown accustomed to wanting and lately I haven't really window shopped for anything lately. Maybe because I have no one to accompany me? Or I'm just not that going-out person anymore.

Hopefully, the Christmas spirit will kick in after a while and we will all be joyful this season. Let us stay positive, because the day of the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ is nearing. Christmas season is not for gifts, but is for our family, friends, and especially the Lord. May He bless us this season with prosperity and warmth. I'm sure He will heed our wishes this Christmas, for He is always listening and helping us get through the everyday course of our life.

I believe that things will get better, and we just need a little push. Friends are coming back to their families and we will be joyous once again in each other's company. I just hope to see that the one person that I really long for, wants to see me too, and spend time together this special holiday, this VERY special day before Christmas. :-)

12-12-12

12-12-12... It's such a wonder that I have lived through THREE decades (1990, 2000, 2010), TWO Centuries (20th & 21st), while living this ONE life and I am still 18 years old. Life is indeed wonderful. There will be days, months or even years that will never go our way, but we must look down. We are born in this world for a reason, and to find that reason is what we have too look in life.

All life's frustrations are obstacles for us to get better and realize who we really are. Our problems make way for our paths. Our paths are what we choose. Life will be dull without these, for that we have to stay strong. Love is always around us, even if we can not feel it. Love will find it's way to life. Life is full of twists and turns, hills and plains, tidal waves and calm seas, it is unexpected. These are what makes life wonderful.

12-12-12 will come again in another century, another lifetime. Our next generation will live through it again, and will learn to appreciate everyday life. Things right now are frustrating, more doubts than laughs, but I still hope that things will be alright. Eventhough I am close to making myself explode from this Earth, I will never forget that there are people that still LOVE and CARE for me everyday, if I am sick, stressed, or even healthy. I know what I need to find, but the question is that if that someone too is looking for me these days. I feel that things have been shaken and dissipating bit by bit. I hope I am wrong though. I have not accepted defeat.

But this is reality, life is not a movie that one snap of a scene, things always get better.  Reality holds the truth, and I need to know the truth. I need to know from you.

What I have learned from this day is that I have to grab my opportunity to make things right. To understand the feelings of people, and for them to understand me too. Time is constantly changing, we must make a move, for just standing still will never make the world move.

Love is full of life, and life is full of love. These two are always in proportion. Each day with you always make me full of life. We need to talk, to finally make each of us understand what we need to hear. :)