Ang about sa "Why???..." (Multiply message from you to me)

We are still definitely more than that. I Miss You, My Love. I feel really bad, and I do Miss You a lot. I feel lonely when you are not here. I don't feel good when you are not here. I just feel weak and not being able to do anything. Yes, maybe I am weak. I became weaker every passing day. Not being able to realize that my immaturity has taken over me. I know I need to mature and grow up. I have been trying to sleep early, and these past few days, I have been. I napped most of the afternoons. But sometimes, I just couldn't sleep knowing that I am still worried about where you are and kept thinking about you. Every day you are always on my mind. And everyday, I feel weaker and out of breath feeling more depressed. We haven't been able to talk to each other for about a week already and it really feels bad and sad.
But I still have hope that we could get through this. I want to know how your trip went. I want to know all the places you came to see. I want to see you. I need to see you. We definitely need to make things right between us. I don't want us to fight. I really Miss You. And I want to spend time with you. I still am looking forward to the day we will have our picnics, swimming, running, laughtrips, foodtrips, movietrips, and everything else again. I know that we will be better. That we will keep on holding tight to eachother. I still do hold on tight, because I dont want to lose you.

Only 4 grades went out yesterday and here it is:
- Calculus = 3.0
- PE = 1.75
- Hum = 1.5
- Fil = 2.25
I am really glad that I passed Calculus, and I thank you so much for believing in me. Because of you, I did not loose hope. I will not loose hope. Because hope is what I have that keeps me running. I still believe and I do have faith.

I Miss You, Dear. Please Talk to me. :)

Full moon

Confused as I am too, things came up at an instant. Too much bad decision making, too much anticipation of what is coming next, I need to make myself decide better. My decision making skills are pretty bad, I reckon. But man, these times are hard. For me and for you too. I know that I am stressing you out more than I know it.

We were supposed to go watch Manila Kingpin: the Asiong Salonga story, but I found out that it was not showing anymore. Last minute I got hungry, and that pretty muchruined my day then and there because I did not think straight anymore with things keep popping in my head like not going down and wait bur wait at the restaurant. The truth is, I really thought of stopping and coming down to wait. I really did. A split second it was over, that I zoomed past WVSU and ISC. I choked. Simple but hard for me to understand myself. I choked. Again and again in my life I have failed. I have failed to see which way is the better route. Another thing came to my mind, I missed the times when we were racing to our destination with consequences who came last. Well, I miss our High School times. I really do. I hope we could have one of those days again, one of our high school days where we enjoy coming and going to where our destination lies.

Well, I also know that you are not pathetic in anyway, because I know I am pathetic and a jerk too. I would still be going on with you through life. I will go to every ends of the Earth with you. :)





"But we’re gonna start by drinking "not expired" glasses of Meeelk
Sit talking up all night, Saying things we haven't for a while,
We're smiling but we're close to tears, Even after all these years
Somehow I got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time"

Singing my emotions out and thinking how to make myself better. :)

1st of January

Good Evening, Love. Your blog has touched me again. I really have let myself down last year but of Hope to step it up this year. Obstacles and challenges are always there to meet us, but it is how our heart responses that takes us to the top and over our difficulties and differences. And by responsibilities, I have to make my own and take it up until the end. They really are important things that we need to prioritize for it is how we live today. Our responsibilities to our families, friends, YOU, and OURSELVES.

What you say is correct. That happiness is associated to love. When loving, you are indeed happy inside. When you are sad to someone you love, you are sad for their well being (if they have done harm to anything even themselves). Sad in order for them to realize that in someway or somehow they have hurt their loved ones too. But be happy if that person strives to replace that sadness with smiles and laughter, with cheers and comfort.

"Two persons who have chosen each other out of all the species with a design to be each other's mutual comfort and entertainment have, in that action, bound themselves to be good-humored, affable, discreet, forgiving, patient, and joyful, with respect to each other's frailties and perfections, to the end of their lives" - Joseph Addison

I know that love and happiness will come again. It has to start within you and me. Most especially within me.

"If you wished to be loved, love." - Lucius Seneca

2011, the year of the Rabbit

I know we have had our ups and downs this year, especially that we had our long hiatuses and fights. I know that I still have a lot of growing up to do, and you have too. But I need more of that. I realize that I am indeed not giving it my all and still being as stubborn as a mule. I know I am hard headed. I know that I still don't know how to run this relationship. I am really sorry for my actions especially this 2011. 2011, this year that I have disappointed you, that I have let you down, that I have pushed us to the limit, that I have ruined our goals for this year. I am really sorry that I haven't been able to achieve anything this year. I feel that 2011 is not a good year for me. But I do still have hope for us. For 2012 is just around the corner. I know that hope is still there. When Pandora opened that box, all evil intentions and emotions covered the world, but one good emotion remained and that is HOPE. I still have hope for the best to come. And I still really am believing and having faith, especially on myself to become a better man. To deserve the things that I need to deserve, especially you. I do deserve you, but (as of my state now) I do not. And I will still strive to become a better person to deserve you back, to get this starting strong again and continue on to forever.

Time runs fast. 2011 ran fast. We had made a lot of memories too this year. It wasn't all that bad. We had our happy times that overshadows our bad times. We have now responsibilities (reponsibilidad) to do. I know I do have to set my priorities straight. I have to, that is one of my new year's resolutions. especially to stop cheating and stealing and lying, the greatest sins man could ever do. Man has always been mischeivous, and that is because of the devils that tempt us to do bad things. I have been tempted and I succumbed to evil. I need to become a better person to become a better man to everyone. Please help me. I know that we could still help each other out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! HAPPY NEW YEAR! Let us hope for the best this 2012. The world will not end. For us, it will never. We will make it on and live forever happily ever after. :) <:*>

A smile can turn your day around.

"Smile an ever lasting smile,

A smile can bring you near to me;

Don't ever let me find you gone,

Because that would bring a tear to me

It's only words,

And words are all I have

To take your heart away "

Hi there, it's been a whole year (356 days actually) since my last post. Well, I've been fairly busy. To the extent that I almost forgot I did make a blog, but hey, I'm still here and not down for the count. From 2nd semester of my 1st year in the College of Engineering to the 2nd semester of my 2nd year in the CPU College of Engineering. It's been a tough year all around, had my ups and downs (even until this right very day). Hehe. It's life. All I can do is keep on smiling. Smiling when I am in pain or smiling when I am in utmost enjoyment. Those are two different things but it really helps in both situations. I don't know why but smiling helps me get rid of stresses. It makes me feel a tiny bit better even though I had just experienced something agonizing. It leads me to know that there is still HOPE. Hope for the coming of a better thing.

As I start my blog of anythingandeverything, I just hope that someone out there is also trying to smile even though it hurts. Everything in this world starts and ends with a smile.

One smile can change the views of the whole world. A natural stress reliever and pain killer, it also boosts your immune system. Be relaxed, try it. Smile! Don't forget to smile at the camera (Still aspiring to be a photographer). Hey, I smiled while laughing at myself. See, it helped.

The Rhodora

The Rhodora

By: Ralph Waldo Emerson

In May, when sea-winds pierced our solitudes,

I found the fresh Rhodora in the woods,

Spreading its leafless blooms in a damp nook,

To please the desert and the sluggish brook.

The purple petals, fallen in the pool,

Made the black water with their beauty gay;

Here might the red-bird come his plumes to cool,

And court the flower that cheapens his array.

Rhodora! if the sages ask thee why

This charm is wasted on the earth and sky,

Tell them, dear, that if eyes were made for seeing,

Then Beauty is its own excuse for being:

Why thou wert there, O rival of the rose!

I never thought to ask, I never knew:

But, in my simple ignorance, suppose

The self-same Power that brought me there brought you.

Towards the light :)

And though I traveled far from where my search began

Over seas of green and shores of sand

Through the endless, everlasting world out there...

I know that with this burning passion driving me,

Some day, somewhere, I'll finally

see the light I have searched for everywhere...