Saturday

Hey guys I just have to pour out what I'm feeling right now.

I am not feeling well. Not feeling well at all. I don't know if things have changed for the worst. I don't know what to expect. One day I can't sleep of being excited that that day would be really great and we would end up having a really great time. But things happened and made it worse. I really feel bad. I am pissed off at myself, not at you. I am honestly thinking that I am not the best person in the world. I know I am not. You are always on my mind, every second of every minute of everyday. I couldn't sleep knowing that we are on the rough side again. It's not your fault. It's practically and literally mine. I burdened these on myself and you have every right to get angry at me. I try. I did try and I still keep on trying. I want to make it work even though it is hard and is getting harder. I do give an effort to make you happy. I just don't know if it worked. I still am trying to figure out how to show a lot more of my effort to you. It's just that sometimes I feel that you're stepping on me and the efforts I give to make you happy. You deserve to be happy and I am willing to sacrifice myself to make you happy. I guess I don't fill that expectation. I'm a lovesick fool still trying my hardest to make you notice me. Right now, I am not flying high and won't ever go to the moon. I want things to the way it were when we are not always fighting.

It's my fault that I still haven't healed from the flu. I should also say it's over fatigue of playing soccer. But... I love playing soccer. Eventhough I know I am not good at it. I play because I could feel the breeze when I am running, I could breathe and focus on only one thing. There, I could think clearly. I always give it my all because I know you love the sport too and I really want to make you proud and happy. I don't have too many accomplishments, I'm not smart, I'm not a leader. I'm trying to act that I am, but I truly am not. I don't have the guts. I always tend to hesitate at the biggest moments. 4th year, the game-winning goal for Westbridge. The ball barely touched my head infront of the goal. I hesitated to jump and the ball went to me. If I just jumped, we would have won the game. I didn't. It still traumatizes me and makes me realize that I fade off every big moment. Maybe I am just a feeler, feeling that I am Mr. Everything. But I tell you, I will never be Mr. Everything. I'm Mr. Nothing. I am no good. I feel really negative.

But after taking a breather, I realized that I see my flaws and I want to make myself better. I still have one thing left though. I still have my Hope. That things will be better and happier. I know it will be. It's another hurdle to jump over, but we will be happier and a better US.

I'm sorry for the tantrums. So much mixed emotions and uncertainty filled up inside my head and it's beginning to get clearer. :-)

I know you're looking out for me. And I thank you for that. I hope I do look out more for myself. :-)

...cause I, think you're from another world.

and I couldn't love another girl.

'Cause you make me feel like I'm intoxicated (with milk and your love)

RIP Comedy King

As you may have heard already, the Philippine Comedy King, Rodolfo "Dolphy" Vera Quizon passed away last tuesday 8:34pm. It is another great loss to the Filipino people and to the Entertainment world. Through 70 years in show business he moved the hearts of Filipinos arund the world. His career began as a stage performer during the Japanese occupation.  His talent was realized by Pancho Magalona and they teamed up to form a long lasting bond that brought out the smiles of everyone. He is now in a better place and he will always bring joy and laughter wherever he goes. Goodbye, Dolphy. May you have a very good sleep.

Wednesday, 11th July 2012.
I went to WVSU Medical Center around 3pm because I thought you had your duty there, after a while of waiting I texted Betsy and she said that you had Duty at school. You said you had a meeting too, so it's understandable. But I still waited for your reply. Around 3:50 I went back to CPU for football practice. This is the last week for the final lineups. The Lineups were supposed to be due yesterday afternoon but Kevin told the ESC that by Friday he'll give it out because the selection process is getting hard. Everyone is doing their best to be part of the team. Tomorrow is the last day and after practice the lineups will be called upon. I hope that I still am part of the team. Next week is CEW, so classes will be shortened. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, unfortunately, classes end at 7:30pm. We'll have time. I know you're busy with Lipsynch and your football practice. I hope I could practice with you guys too. I really want to see you play again. Haha.

Oh yeah, I'm sorry for the way I acted last wednesday night. I was tired and grumpy 'coz of the Prelim exam I had today but I still managed to get around Jaro to find the Newspaper and unfortunately all stores were closed. I finally bought the Daily Star this morning around 6:30am. I bought yesterday's and today's edition. I asked for the Daily Inquirer but they had no Headlines about Dolphy. I guess that the ones they released yesterday wasn't the updated one. I am really sorry. I do have a surprise though. Let's do our best, ok? :-)

Meatballs Galore

Things have been great. It really has been going smooth. I am really happy this week, not only that prelims are finished, but also because I have you in my life. You are very important to me and that I will do everything to make you happy. Thank You for the Eat/Pig-outs we have had these past few days. You definitely deserved it. You need to be happy before Duty starts again. We will grow. Better, stronger, wilder, and faster. I am really looking forward to your football games, lipsynch, and your articles of LIFELINE. I know that you could do it. We have our responsibilities and we both know that school goes first, but I'll always be here for you. I thank you so much. I really had fun today, friday, and saturday. I enjoyed every minute of it and am looking forward to spending our free time together. Let's keep our heads up.

Everything will fall into place, bit-by-bit. Duties and responsibilities are our priorities first and foremost. We will enjoy every bit of time we have. Enjoy soccer too! I'm looking forward to see you and play with you again.

We're recharging and will be at full power in time. :-)

I helped to make these too. Next time, we'll eat it together. Natam.an gawa sa black pepper, but it still turned out to be delicious. 

Fuel, UP, Glor's, Soccer, SM, Cathedral. Arigatou Gozaimasu!

MaCheeze again sometime!

Shakes Lasagna and Pizza are waiting for us. Good Night, Jesyl. I thank you so much. Burgers again! :-)

Bitter Sweet Baked Talaba

The waves were splashing under us, 

we feel like we're flying with the summer breeze.

two people with their hearts connecting,

always together, in love and happy

Hi, folks! Happy Happy Day today. Oh Happy Day!

My mum woke me up a little past 9am because there was a call for me, my dad answered it and thought it was for me, but it turns out it was just for him, he forgot about who the caller was when actually it was his old High School Classmate. WOW. 

I met up with Jesyl at Jaro Cathedral around 10am, I brought along the Rizal book she lent me (and I initiall forgot where I put my Rizal Guide Book by Prof. Legada). We went to Ted's/Dulgie's near St. Joseph School. I ordered Extra Super Special (the biggest Batchoy bowl), the problem was that I didn't feel like eating the Liver and the intestines. They were hard to chew. Wh talked and catched up to each other, then "le wild" idea appeared that we really both loved. We went to Villa to eat at Stanley's. Look at her blog when she posts it. The Food was incredible. We had great laughs, talked so much and learned many things. I especially love eating the Kalamay-Hati. Dw ka sbd lng gd xng mga galibod xng ginamos w/ mangoes. Atrium went well, we found some really nice clothes. I am really happy that we spent the day together, catching up and just having fun together. It's been ages since, right? We'll take it step by step. (baby steps, maybe) But, we'll definitely make it work. Thank you for coming with me to the Salon for my haircut. Thank You. Thank You. I am happy, I hope you are too. I know you are. Thank You. We'll do this again when we're free.

Hey, I just met you,

and this is crazy,but here's my number,so call me, maybe?
Well, we didn't really just newly met, we met fourteen years ago. I have you're number and I wont hesitate to call and text you. I will definitely call you Coz':
I miss you so badI miss you so badI miss you so so bad
I do. Thank YOU so much for today. I am really happy. We both are, I know. :-)I sure do wish we had taken a picture where both of us are in it. 

Brother's & Sisters? Twins we are, but we are definitely more than friends.
Remember, we still have that promise of Bacolod and I hope you would never forget the question I asked you when we were eating at Stanley's: The "Why did I **** you if I..."
Take you're time, we still have lots f years ahead of us, let's not rush.

 :)

Thank You,

H

La la love you

Come feel my heart 
It’s beating like a drum and I confess
When you’re around
It’s like an army’s marching through my chest


And there’s nothing I can do
I just gravitate towards you
You’re pulling on me like the moon


You’re like a song
A beautiful symphony to my eyes
So take me on
I wanna sing along all through the night


I’m not like the other boys
Cause with you I’ve got no choice
You make me wanna lose my voice
I just wanna get you sideways
No, I’m not the type to lie
Let me turn off all these lights
You know that you could be my favourite lullaby


What would you do if I told you that I la, la, la, la, loved you?

Well, I do really love you. I really miss you. I hope we could talk soon.

:-)

Invisible

Sometime I feel as though I am invisible, not being seen or heard by anyone around me. It's an odd feeling mixed with embarrassment and sadness. When you are talking to someone and not get heard, things might be bit embarrassing. I have to work my way to get myself be heard and be noticed by the ones that I acknowledge. These things are hard, but with effort and patience, it might as well work.

It's been another long Tuesday. We all thought we would have tests today, but the teachers forgot or something unexpected happened to them. Anyway, quiz week is starting again as we get closer and closer to our Preliminary Examinations this coming July. Things got a bit busier and complex. but that is 3rd year life, the MAJORS. Engr. Java told us that we need time to study and solve at home to increase our knowledge. 3rd year is the hardest among the years because it is the transition year and the year that you will have to learn everything you can to pass the higher majors.

Things will be ok, H. It will. Just give the effort to everything you love and care about. Keep focusing on your goals. But I will never forget my virtues. I KNOW things will be alright with my family, friends and with J. We can work all of these out in time with the effort and the care.

I do not want to be invisible, the one that is lonely and sulking at everything. I want to make things right for the better. We need to assure ourselves that we are alright and we could help each other better :)


It's okay now, things will get better. They will for sure. You could take a deep breath and compose yourself, take your time, I won't rush. It will be okay. Don't worry too much because the burden will further stress you out. You've got dreams too, follow and achieve it. Everyone is here to support you, I will definitely do too. Be happy, Live on, Laugh hard, and Love even more. It's a life worth having :)

Daddy's Day

I hope the title didn't sound that Gay. Haha. Anyway, today is Father's Day. Happy Father's Day, Toto Hector Jr. Haha. Well, I may be very hard headed and always not asking for help when I need it, (on my engineering subjects) even though I know nga na agyan mu na na kg may nabal.an ka sa lessons ku. I am really sorry. I know that our family isn't all that perfect on the outside, but it really is perfect for me and my brothers. Thank You for everything. You support us with everything you've got and help us out eventhough we don't ask for it. You are always there for us when we need you the most. let us keep on running and endure the run of a lifetime. 

June 16, 2012

(because I didn't write a blog yesterday...)

Thank You, Jes for these pasalubongs, Knamit xng Durian Macaroons, Candy and Yemas. I really appreciate it. Especially that you baught a Pomelo, "Cabugao" in local terms, for me and you remembered that it is my favorite food. Thank You. Thank You. HOPE. I am. :)