12-13-12

12 days before Christmas, but where's the love? Somehow I don't feel this Christmas season. There's something clearly wrong and off about it. I can't tell what it is yet, but I hope things will be better after a while.

There are many things that I always want when it's Christmas season, but lately I feel as though I have grown accustomed to wanting and lately I haven't really window shopped for anything lately. Maybe because I have no one to accompany me? Or I'm just not that going-out person anymore.

Hopefully, the Christmas spirit will kick in after a while and we will all be joyful this season. Let us stay positive, because the day of the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ is nearing. Christmas season is not for gifts, but is for our family, friends, and especially the Lord. May He bless us this season with prosperity and warmth. I'm sure He will heed our wishes this Christmas, for He is always listening and helping us get through the everyday course of our life.

I believe that things will get better, and we just need a little push. Friends are coming back to their families and we will be joyous once again in each other's company. I just hope to see that the one person that I really long for, wants to see me too, and spend time together this special holiday, this VERY special day before Christmas. :-)

12-12-12

12-12-12... It's such a wonder that I have lived through THREE decades (1990, 2000, 2010), TWO Centuries (20th & 21st), while living this ONE life and I am still 18 years old. Life is indeed wonderful. There will be days, months or even years that will never go our way, but we must look down. We are born in this world for a reason, and to find that reason is what we have too look in life.

All life's frustrations are obstacles for us to get better and realize who we really are. Our problems make way for our paths. Our paths are what we choose. Life will be dull without these, for that we have to stay strong. Love is always around us, even if we can not feel it. Love will find it's way to life. Life is full of twists and turns, hills and plains, tidal waves and calm seas, it is unexpected. These are what makes life wonderful.

12-12-12 will come again in another century, another lifetime. Our next generation will live through it again, and will learn to appreciate everyday life. Things right now are frustrating, more doubts than laughs, but I still hope that things will be alright. Eventhough I am close to making myself explode from this Earth, I will never forget that there are people that still LOVE and CARE for me everyday, if I am sick, stressed, or even healthy. I know what I need to find, but the question is that if that someone too is looking for me these days. I feel that things have been shaken and dissipating bit by bit. I hope I am wrong though. I have not accepted defeat.

But this is reality, life is not a movie that one snap of a scene, things always get better.  Reality holds the truth, and I need to know the truth. I need to know from you.

What I have learned from this day is that I have to grab my opportunity to make things right. To understand the feelings of people, and for them to understand me too. Time is constantly changing, we must make a move, for just standing still will never make the world move.

Love is full of life, and life is full of love. These two are always in proportion. Each day with you always make me full of life. We need to talk, to finally make each of us understand what we need to hear. :)

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I love this emoticon <(") - that's a penguin!

To the moon

"A summer's disregard

A broken bottle top

And a one man's soul

They follow each other

On the wind ya' know

'Cause they got nowhere to go

That's why I want you to know"

I'm starting with the man in the mirror. I'm asking him to change his ways. And no message could have been any clearer, if you wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself and then make a change.
Change is the hardest thing to to because, it is not easy to change who you really are. But when you do realize that things are needed to change, then change for the better. This is what I have realized these past months and especially this sembreak.
As I look through myself in the mirror, I couldn't see clearly of who I am. I might have lost track of myself and straying to a wrong path, but it might be just that I am a little confused and pondering what life really means. Things happen for a reason, I believe. Might be for good or for worse, these little experiences help us gain experience and lessons to be learned. A friend starting to drift away, families breaking apart, trust fading away, mind not working properly... these are some of the things that might be the common problem of straying away from the path we are supposed to choose. If things need to be settled, settle with yourself first, know what is wrong and what is right, understand others so that they could understand what you are going through too. A little change in personality could be a really big help to people around us. That's partly a case for me, no one is telling me what I have done wrong, so it might be a bit hard, but I am still managing.
We need to reflect on our mistakes. You are not the only one who is stupid enough to make mistakes again and again in life. I too am that stupid person. I keep making mistakes. Once you've recognized your mistakes, it's easy enough to correct them. Though time and persistence will tell if we do exactly change. But the next question is: what happens when we change, is it for the better of for the worse? It's a gamble we have to choose ourselves but when we pick the right paths, it will always surely be rewarding.
Expectations: we always have those don't we? That will never run out. We always want others to meet our expectations, but in turn, we haven't met their expectations as well. That's cruel, but that is how our world was made.
There is always hope that things will be better. I have to fix myself, care about my body and studies too, but there are other important things that needs to be done too. Because I won't give up on us and I am still looking up even if gravity pulls us down, it will never stop me from reaching the moon.
Let's believe, Hope, and Pray that things will definitly be brighter. Though 2012 hasn't been friendly, it's still not the end of the world. Thank You. 'Til next time again. Peace. Apollo out. :-)

2nd Sem

Yo. Still alive, still breathing, but almost down on my knees crawling. It's just been the start of the 2nd semester and things have gone on a roller coaster. 

To sum up the subjects that I'm taking up this semeseter are:

1) Electromagnetics - is back just like Vectors, "Too Fast, Too Furious", when you copy, you can't listen, when you listen, you can't understand a word because maam is like a GShG -7.62 Gatling gun. 

2) Dynamics - Papang is back with his usual moody self, while being hilarious & scary both at the same time, he just wants to retire, that's all but the school won't ever let him go. It's kinda like Mechanics but for now, it seems ok. Dealing with Free-Falling-Bodies & Physics

3) Deformable - Ouch. Man... New teacher, Engr. Ocate. What to say, he speaks softly but man, his tests are a pain. His catch phrase is "Okay lang?" "Makita nyo ni sa likod, Okay lang?" "Te, Okay lng?"

4) Electronics II - Engr. Alguidano is the same as ever. Kinda hates night class but has no choice because that's out schedule.

5) Circuits II - Dr./Engr. Java is the man of the semester again! Ouch. Super ouch. 2nd day of classes, we got locked out for being late when it was still 7am on our watch, the reason, his watch was 15 minutes advanced than ours. So, we had to adjust again. He's a bit fast and has too many shortcuts, so it's kinda hard to understand Phasors & the like.

6) Advanced Math - Engr. Catadman-Pascual, the newly married professor in the engineering building right here. She came back after a 5 year absence from teaching. So far, she's been a good teacher, very likely to replace Engr. Lacson's teachin qualities. So far so good.

7) Human Resource Development (HRD) - is a minor course in engineering focusing on the self-confidence and self-acceptance of the individual, to put him on the right track & keep his goals in sight. Too bad that it's Engr. Ojario who's teaching us this class, no body's gonna listen to his gags, he's just too much of a goofball, but still a good teacher. Random grades here we come again.

That was the list of my subjects this semester.

Congratulations!

Hello there! I went back online to congratulate you on the job very well done. i know you definitely deserve it, especially for the hard work you have done. I am really so proud of you. I really really am. Happy Happy gd ko. Celebrate ta ha? Thank You. I believe & keep faith. We can do this right. Be strong. Focus. Let God help us and let him do his work. Miracles happen to those who deserve it, and you really really do deserve the best! :-)

Happy Birthday! :)

Happy Happy Birthday, Jesyl Garielle V. Gubatanga!

Another year, another turning point. There are many things that we still have to improve. And I believe that we could improve ourselves and to grow much stronger. Keep Living happily, Laughing hard, and Loving more & more. Things will be only getting tougher as we get a bit older, but we gain more skills and grow wiser at the same time.

We have been through a lot and I am really thankful for that. Keep Safe. Always Focus & Study hard! You'll become one heck-of-a doctor someday. Keep your faith, virtues and goals. Thank You, Bestie. I'm here to support you all the way. Always. God Bless.  :-)