3-28-2014 (Graduation)

Hello there! It's been a really long time since I posted. Since ky wla nmn multiply, so here na lg. I know it might be late enough when you read this, pero, 

HAPPY HAPPY GRADUATION, JESYL GABRIELLE V. GUBATANGA.

I know we have our differences, & mostly we're not in synch mg kitaay ta, pero I cherish every moment of them. I am going to Manila this sunday (March 30, 2014) to start my 2014 Educational Tour w/ the College. I do not know what might happen, pero we'll be safe, I am sure.

I thank you for everything that has happened this past 7 years. I know I'm such a pain in the buttocks and that I always contradict what you're telling me not to do. But I guess I just want to have that lasting presence on you that you'll never ever forget. Even though you may not have the feelings back, I can understand that and respect that. Pero, you always have a place in my heart & always that soft spot for you. I hurts, everyday it does, pero love hurts. Every time you choose to love, it's inevitable.

I quote Ted Moseby from How I Met Your Mother: "But love doesn't make sense! You can’t logic your way into or out of it! Love is totally nonsensical, but we have to keep doing it... or else we’re lost and love is dead and humanity is just packing in. Because love is the best thing we do! Look, I know that sounds cheesy but it’s just true. It doesn't have to make sense just to make sense."

But, cguro, we have to grow apart to grow closer? I understand that now, that we have to find that feeling again. That spark, whenever it may come. That aura, you just know & feel it when we're together. That feeling of comfort and presence. It's tough to find, but somehow I will find a way. Thank You for everything Jesyl. Thank You so much. I would want to say this to you, but I don't know when we could be able to talk. You have your review & that's more important. Just what makes you happy, I'm all for it. Your graduation may just be the last time you might see me in my present state, or not, pero, I truly hope that the next time we see each other, I would be a better man.

Please listen to this anime song, & it's a really nice rom-com anime. Bzi gusto mo mg lantaw? Hehe. & I also left here a link for it's lyrics & english translation (click here). It's lyrics summs up what I'm trying to say though :-)

The beating of my heart won't stop. I will never ever forget all those times, laughing and crying with you, in our memories. I'm searching for the true me while becoming an adult is so difficult. Though I sometimes wonder if it's okay to forget about now...because the night is waiting. Though, my heart dances when I meet with you, and I spin around excitedly. Maybe, now, you'll realize these feelings I want to convey.Even though we're afraid of the past and the future, we can't move if we stay hollow inside. If we're having fun,  then, it's all right! I get the feeling that if I just forget all the unpleasant things, and dance all night with you, I can become a more wonderful person. It's our never-ending golden time. The distance between us is closing tightly even if we take detours or part ways, I'll always treasure you.

The things like finding the me of my dreams? I don't know anything about the future. I just want to be happy, and for you to be happy too. The night won't wait forever, after all :-)

Even though we're afraid of loving and hating each other, our hearts tell no lies. I've got to convey it, let's never give up. I get the feeling that if I forget all the unpleasant things and throw away my shame, I can become a more wonderful person. So, this beginning is our golden time, the words I spun together at that time. I'm sure the continuation of this dream has been seen forever. So, I'll stick out my chest proudly and walk...

The moment we meet eye-to-eye, it became so painful at times. Though, it was almost fun. If we lose focus, the dawn will chase us down right away. Hand in hand let's go! 'cause the beating of my heart won't stop & 

I will never ever forget all those times we spent laughing and crying together. The things from here on out, and the things up until now I can accept them all little by little. If I am with you, I can believe that all the best things in life has yet to happen. I believe that it is with you. 

I won't stop courting you, but I will give us the distance that we both need. I thank you for everything. You know so much that I know you, though moles keep popping out & you hate it if I count them. Let's not count the days that we're together or apart. The days come and pass, like past & present, but each day we grow, I hope, better, wiser, and more mature. 

When we see each other again. I know we'll feel the things that we missed & the things that brings us closer.

Happy Graduation once again! The future might be dim, but As what Senator Miriam Santiago said (aside from politics): "The Meaning of Life is what you choose it to mean". It's on our hands and it all depends on how we handle it.

I Love You,

Hector B. Ledesma III

October 28, 2013

Dear J,

Hi, it's been a while since I last blogged here. Even though I'm not sure if you'll see this on your special day, I'll still say it here. It's been a heck of a ride. 19 years and 365 days has passed since you were brought to this world by the power of God & the undying love of your parents. A lot has happened since then. We grow up,  every second, minute, hours, days & through the years. We mature even in the slightest ways possible. 19 years & 365 days has passed, and now an adult, that big 2-n-O.

I'm really thankful for all the things that we have gone through, our laughs, our silence, our cries. Never was a moment that I regret being with you. You lighted up my life & I did yours as well. Those 5 years were special to the both of us. We did anything and everything together. Happiest moments came too. But, I guess its for the better if it is this way, in-order for us to learn & mature for ourselves & as you say, love better. I understand that this is what is needed & is what you want. I'll be okay, as you are going to be too. We'll both be okay, we'll both become stronger & mature. As we are already adults, we are expected to be the mature people, but just never forget to have fun. Live, Laugh, Love. Cry. It's all part of life that we are living in now. But it's never YOLO, we've got to make the right decisions. Our future depends on how we handle it.

I thank you so much for what we have gone through & for what we will go through. It's a never ending process. We do not know what ever lies ahead. Que sera, sera? Whatever happens, happened for a reason. For us to rise up & get successful, or fall into the ground only until to get back up again. I guess, the reason will show itself in the future. We will see & realize what our lives mean to us and to each other. There is no false hope. Believe in ourselves. Have faith in the Lord God, for he knows what he has planned. Let us set ourselves to the right path & correct our wrongdoings.

Be happy, okay? I don't want to see you sad, especially because of me. Even though I am selfish, just as long as you are happy, it will all be alright. Do what is fun, do what makes you happy.

Happy Happy Birthday, Jesyl Gabrielle Villaflor Gubatanga.

Even though we are having a tough time, I will always forever support you on what will make you happy. I am here, and never forget that. It's a long way back, but we'll find each other again someday. We'll find that trust that we lost. I'm sure of it. It's never a goodbye. I'll see you soon, but for now, enjoy your very special day. This is my gift for you on your 20th Birthday, it's what you wanted, but it's what I too have realized that we both need. God Bless. Always. I know you'll take care. I still trust you, you know that. Always PRAY. God is watching, always, every-second/mili-second since the day you came out onto this Earth.

We'll both be waiting and moving at the same time. never cease to grow & learn new things. See the world. Let's aim for the better, and the best. Let us be what we want to be, what we need to be.

It's never just a memory, it's within us.

Someday when we'll find eachother again, let's have a really massive pigout. Catch up of what we have gone through after all those times. Time will mend everything, maybe for a better one, or atleast patch up what was once lost.

But for now, let's enjoy & find out what the world has hidden for us.

Once again, Happy Happy Birthday, Jesyl. I am really glad that we have eachother in our lives. You will always have this special place in my heart, & I know deep in you, you feel the same way about me too.
We made eachother what we are. & Let's continue builiding ourselves for to become the best that we could ever be.

Focus on studies, Family, & God first. We're still 20, we've still got our whole lives to go after.

Enjoy your 1st day as an adult, the teen years will always be & forever etched as one of the happiest & craziest times. We will be happy. We will find a way to happy, and be the happiest. God Bless. Take Care.

See you soon, whenever, wherever. God will lead us the way. :)

Love,
H


P.S.
Thank You so much. You will always & forever will be my only cutest, sweetest, bubbly Cupcake. :-)

A Poem :)

YOU (IKAW)

You are the
Apple of my eye
Mango of my Pie
Palaman of my tinapay
Teeth of my suklay
Blood of my atay,
Bubbles of my laway
Sala of my bahay
Foundation of my tulay
Seeds of my palay,
Clothes from my ukay-ukay,
Calcium in my kalansay
Calamansi of my siomai
Knot of my tie
Toyo of my kuchay
Vitamins in my gulay
Airplane of my Cathay
Stars of my sky
Hammer of my panday
Sand of my Boracay
Sultan of my Brunei
Highland of my Tagaytay
Mole of my Ate Guy
Spinach of my Popeye
Sizzle when I fry
Wind when I paypay
Tungkod when I am pilay
Feeling when I’m high
Shoulder when I cry
Wings when I fly
Prize when I vie
Cure to my “aray”
Answer to my “why”
The life after I die

Lakers 07-09

I miss these Lakers team. They were super athletic, young, well-rounded, well-built, and have CHEMISTRY. I miss these guys.

Sasha Vujacic - his pestering defense along with his dead on Free-throws and can't miss three pointers

Shannon Brown - his uber athleticism, tenacity, running and gunning, highflying showtime dunks!

Ronnie Turiaf/Josh Powell - High energy, full of heart players that doesn't know when to give up. They are the heart of the team and the best cheerleaders!

Jordan Farmar - UCLA player, pointguard with a strong head, knows where his teammates are and always plays with his strengths. He could have been the Lakers' future pointguard but he left LA for NJ. Speedy and a capable finisher with a good field vision.

Trevor Ariza - another uber athletic, run & gun player, that can lock-down a player with his length and speed. He can soar for rebounds and blocks, and can always count on his hustle plays. He has the heart of purple and gold.

These role players are which brought the Lakers back to the glory days. Their passion and drive drove them to the top of the world. How I wishPau Gasol would revert back to this playing style. Agressive and hungry for a chip and a challenge. Let's get it on Lakers! Let's win this for Dr. Buss!

 

Let's go Lakers!!!

You'll always be my favorite team!

2.28.13 - 8 Months until 20

6 months... 6 months of being nineteen. 8 months to go. It's still a lot of time. 19.5 years you have been living and breathing on this world, it's such a long time. I can still remember 13 years ago on how we met and interacted with each other. Such a wonderful thing. But now, you're turning 20 in half a year. That's 1/5 of the human lifespan (assuming to be 100years). We are gradually growing and maturing more as we reach adulthood. Though we still keep our "Kid at Heart" attitude, still, our physical appearances change. As wrinkles start to grow, and our hair gets grayer too, we will always be. Let us make each other happy, make yourself happy. Live life as you love and how you see it fit. Make these last 6 months of being a teen worthwhile. Grab all those opportunities. Make memories that will last a lifetime. We are just teens at one time in our lives. So, let us LIVE and LOVE happier, better and stronger. God is watching over us, guiding us and helping us to the ideal path.

As you think of it, being an adult means a lot more of responsibility, not just to ourselves, but to others too. As we become adults, we learn more and more of things and it might just a bit more complicated at first. But we'll get the hang of it. In a few years, we would be working and earning for our family. Let us keep in mind that what we are doing is for the future, the betterment of not just our selves, but also for OUR family. Let us Pray to the Lord God for him to help us and lead us to the right path. Let us keep and reach for our dreams. Follow our priorities. And let us HOPE. Thank You so much. There will be more thank yous to come as we get nearer and nearer. You definitely know who you are. I'll be following in 9months and 22 days. :-)

The One

A Must Read article I found via facebook, on finding the ONE.

During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?"

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind

replied the author.

Here's the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you

fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,

want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you

may begin to desire that experience with someone

else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know

WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO....!!! ♥

Awkward

7 Reasons why Sex is good for you. I've read this article in Yahoo! I know it's kinda awkward. But study says that the number each day of the week you have sex, results to your good health, and can help improve our mind and body. No malice or any bad thoughts given. Just an article for a heads up. I know that I will only have sex with my wife and when we are married. But, it's good to know what are its benefits at such an early time. So that we, people, can prepare ourselves and have the knowledge, when making love to our life-long partners.

Here's what the article says:

1 Day a Week for Your Weight 
Sex prompts your brain to release oxytocin, which can improve your sleep, says Helen Fisher, Ph.D., biological anthropologist at Rutgers University in New Brunswick, New Jersey. And more zzz's could mean fewer pounds. Sleep regulates hunger-related hormones ghrelin and leptin, helping you say no to seconds. 

2 Days a Week for Your Sniffles 
Peeps who do it two or three times weekly have 30 percent more immunoglobulin A proteins, which protect against illness, in their system than others do, a study from Wilkes University notes. The 
researchers believe the relaxing, mood-lifting effects of sex may play a role in keeping you healthy. 

3 Days a Week for Your Heart 
It's more fun to hop on a guy than an elliptical, but both aid your ticker. Sex revs heart rate and blood flow. People who do it three times a week could see their risk for a fatal heart attack cut in half, a study from the University of Bristol shows. 

4 Days a Week for Your Skin 
Couples who do it routinely look four to seven years younger (per study subjects asked to guess couples' ages) than those who have less sex, scientists at the Royal Edinburgh Hospital in Scotland report. Could be because sex produces human growth hormone, which may lower body fat and smooth complexion, the study authors say. 

5 Days a Week for Your Outlook 
Frequent sex is linked with increased optimism, energy, focus and creativity. So even when you're not rolling around in the sack, you could feel more positive and have a happier relationship. Plus, all that focus and motivation could help you perform better at work, Fisher says. 

6 Days a Week for Your Brain 
To be a smarty pants, you gotta drop your pants ... as many times as possible. High-five if you get to six, but even one booty sesh is good for your smarts. When you have sex, it increases blood flow to the brain, releasing hormones that may enhance your intellectual capacity, according to Barb DePree, M.D., an ob/gyn in Holland, Michigan. And get this: It might even create new brain cells! 

7 Days a Week for Your Mood 
We're impressed if you're doing it every day. Wow. Even if you're not, though, getting down can help you de-stress. "Regular sex can reduce anxiety," possibly because of the endorphins it produces, says Jonathan R. Cole, M.D., an internist in Westlake Village, California.